My life, from head to toe, like it or not. IT'S MY LIFE!

my army daze!

2008-08-09T16:01:00.003+08:00

ok... i haven been updating this blog for zillions of years and i think it's time for me to do something!

been very busy with life, mainly dancing, army and lil stuff around ....

have been posted to BMT Bronco Coy for over 2 months and yes, it's tiring! not in the body but in the mind.... haven been sleeping enough! (coz they only give you 7 hrs of rest! evertday!)

plus i needa maintain my techniques in dancing so i report for practice every weekend. there goes my weekend right?!

and now i an gonna pass out! so most probably be posted to a light duty vocation, which enables me to book out everyday (hopefully it's the case). and i needa get a partner soon else i would lag behind and i dun wanna waste this golden opportunity to dance. who knows after NS i might not have that much of time to dance again....

so calling all dancers who are looking at this now! if you want a good male partner, grade C proficient, please feel free to tag at the board. but beware! (training with me is tough!!!)

army is mundane.... and sometimes stupid. doing stupid things and i dun understand why am i doing it, (probably because they are higher up there and i am just a cao recruit!) i have totally no control over my life!!! so called the lowest lifeform on the island!

my buddy section and platoon mates are kind. and they are friendly. thus we are lucky not having much trouble. (hey! we have less than 50 push ups to do every day! so wad u think?)just a handful who are blur cock that sometimes makes training fun! hehe...

now. we are only left with live range, hand granade throw, SOC, IPPT and route march. and then we are free!!! headaches comes in when i have to think of an item for OC evening..... a performance that is to be presented to the Coy... and i only have less than a week!!! OMG.... somebody please help me!!

enough said.... i shall go and brainstorm on what to present!!! cya next time!

updates!!!

2008-03-10T09:24:00.018+08:00

heya! i finally cleared my studies.... with joy!!!

hehe actually i only started studying on wednesday of the study week and it's damn stressed! so many things to study! but in the end the papers are quite easy but tricky. hope i get it right!

competition has cleared. long time ago in fact but i got no time to update! yea it has been a success and everyone enjoyed it. make-up wad rushed through. together with the hair. competition was nervous and yea! it's so cool! we got 6th placing i think? cannot remember. over for so long liao...

then we have open house to rush through after that... it was like a few weeks only!!! very tiring.... and it has been a success too!!! though the make up the gers did sucks to the core. i did give help salvage them and let them have a good start to get used to not having me there coz i'm going army soon!!!

after open house we got 5 weeks of breaks!!! not a good news though coz we got projects to chiong! 5 projects per week! one on each day! chiong like siao! monday international business tuesday CRM wednesday effective business writing thursday personal selling friday IMC... OMG!!! but all cleared!!!

during open house breaks we still go sch during sat to self prac and go swimming!!! yea! all exercise abit... and improve oneself!!!

after exam!!! i went to shopping!!! through marina sq suntec and bugis junction and bugis st! only buy one shirt! and i met celine, my waxing therapist. and she give me free manicure muahaha....

then next day we went for pizza hut with some of my classmates, then went play pool, play arcade, watch movie, play bowling and lastly play went MOS!!! FIRST TIME GOING MOS WITH CLASSMATES!

pictures speaks a thousand words.. wso let's see the pics!

us waiting to order!

the other angle!

me still half awake!

me striking my ball!

deciding wad games to play!

decided to play parapara! here comes the para king!

guys took photo outside the restroom while waiting for the vain pots.

at the bowling alley!

at the NEL platform.

posers! and i just poped in!

me licking the whole face of bee wee!!!! slurp!

the drunk cameraman!

group shot!!!

the cam whores!

all the clubbers!

all the posers... trying to look cool!

funny video!!!

2008-03-10T09:22:00.000+08:00

updates! 20 days from Comp!

2007-12-09T23:44:00.000+08:00

Life has beenr eally busy for these few days!

have been busy with admin and operations of the club. jacket designing, aliasing with supplier, collection of jacket funding, sizing. all have been entrusted to me...

then have to settle some of their costumes... brought them to Livi one by one totaling up to 6 visits in a week!!! OMG! then fitting. now have to think of their hair and make-up. now still have to help them design accessories... HEADACHE!!!

then make-up workshop also coming up. though this is the first time we are getting funds for make-up, but there are lotsa things to plan for. and our budget is very very very tight! then have to slowly plan who to take over me after this... sianz...

project is also occupying most of my time! super stucked with my project! and everything is pressing!!!

practice is getting lesser and time is running short. puayloo's learning curve getting shorter... maybe she stressed. and i am getting more and more worried. our standard is far from statisfaction. she's trying but not at her best i know. but as a junior her improvement is good!

then also having open house and clubcrawl pressing soon!!! how ar!!!

also have to plan the gathering for x mas! omg life's exciting!!!

energy!

2007-11-16T20:09:00.001+08:00

i am super tired.....

sch has officially started and i am still adapting to the new sch term....

practice is as usual just that we have more to practice. waltz and froxtrot.
competition is coming and we have extensive training coming up. i will be doing samba with pauline for team match and grade c with puay loo... new partnership and i am so excited!!! worried as well coz bellmond dun have time for private class. means we have to use back the stupid choreo that i dun like at all. the rhumba is fine but i dun like the jive and chachacha. sianz. hope that he can squeeze some time to do a chachacha choreo for us.

NAPFA is round the corner! 7 dec will be dooms day. so to get myself well prepared. i have started a set of hell training... so far, tuesday i had a gym session and swim thereafter. wednesday i had a slight stretching session and a swim! yesterdae i went jogging while waiting for DEX (which he thereafter pang seh me coz he had something on), then i went gym and the swimming again!!! hopfully all these can help me pass my 5 stations and 2.4km...

i dun like sch. though this semester i only have 2 examinable modules... and it's my last semester!!!

i feel like working for jerriene again. coz the money is easy! $25 per hr to assist teaching classes. somemore all the classes nearby 1... but sch holiday now. so no job...sianz...

i need money to pay for my classes!!! any1 wanna sponsor me????

updates

2007-11-11T18:53:00.000+08:00

Haiz...

life has been very busy for the past few weeks. and tml i will be returning to sch. which means to say i have less time to blog again.

things have been going rather well.

firstly all the performance has been cleared and i am glad to say that i have made no mistakes in my steps for the whole of the performance!

then i have quite successfully finished all my girls' hair and make up with some help fromt he seniors and cindee.

mom's d and d is still quite ok. except zelia's lateness....

audition response is better than SA danz inc. and all have been accepted into the club. so welcome juniors!

why pong and michelle class has started and is FUN!

there are also things that does not go too well...

i am not partnering pauline in any dances, though i did ask her abt it for more than 3 times. no reasons were given and i am kinda pissed abt that. anyway it's her choice and as a dance cap i still have to help her in whateva way i can.

and i am thrown with shiying all of a sudden. just that she is a senior and she does not have a partner and peter owes her one. then i have to sacrifice myself to partner her? i think it's crap. not that shi ying is not good. but our style is different!

cindee is trying to get me to partner her for 29th dec comp. i dun think it's a good idea coz same thing, our style is too different. we can try to compete but we will not go far...

finally went out with my fren. and we went for movie (bee movie). then went for some food. we were rather quiet. and then i was invited to join clubbing with their groups of frens. things initially went well. but sometimes get irritated when ppl started to get too close and intimidating to my fren. feels like stabbing me. and my fren is not doing anything! then wad else can i do? if i am helping, and she might just say i kaypo and ungentleman. haiz. so i just left soon after...

maybe i'm just out for a simple person who is just mine and only mine. and i promise i will nv bring a date to club. i prefer monogamy!

and i am a gentleman (at least this time round) i kept my hands to myself. though i thought otherwise...

dance?! lunch?!

2007-11-01T21:31:00.000+08:00

it's coming back again!!!

the disappointment in this family!

i had never come across a mother, capable of going on to holiday one after another, to tell the son to quit something he loved most, giving an absolutely unreasonable excuse.

the msg goes like this: ben go quit ur club. i dun have money for you to continue the dance. if u wan go take from your dad!

my question is: you dun have money to let me take my lessons, then you have money to go KOH SAMUI and XIAMEN. so wad are you trying to say? u are just concerned about yourself? ur own enjoyment?

it has always been the problem in this stupid family. u guys are concerned about yourself and being so self centered. always it is and it was just a wishful thinking that u guys have changed after last christmas incident.

mom has always known for my 3min temp in other stuffs. but this is my most wanted dance and i have gone all out to go for it. and i am just induldging in things that i want. neither did i cause harm to anyone, nor cause difficulties to any lives. and i dun understand which mother would ask her children to quit things that is not wrong and good for his future.

all parents i know are sending their children for all sorts of courses. ballet, piano, swimming, ice skating, acrobatics, gymnasium, painting, and many more. their parents are not very rich either. they just want their children to learn something and make them a better person. they went all out to find the best teacher, the best centre to nurture their child.

wad have my mom done in comparison???

she had never made me breakfast for me.
she had never priased me for doing good in sch.
she had never make my bed.
she had never been anxious about my studies.
she had never been uptight when i fall sick.
she had never fed me when i was ill.
she had never known wad i actually liked to drink or eat.
she had never known when i an happy and wad i am happy about.
she had never known how much she'd hurt me.

she always assume that i am a bad boy.
she always think i can be indepedent.
she always think that we are still in the stone age.
she always compare us with her younger days.
she always complain about the mess in the house when it was OUR house, not my house.
she always cook lousy food and say we waste food.
she always disturb my sleep.
she always plan things according to her timetable.
she always buy lotsa stuff home and let them rot at home.
she always not at home.
she always think that it's my fault.
she always my mom, whom i loved but does not love me.

i want to dance... but if i dance i will not be able to work and support myself.
and it's just so sickening to see mom and get mad always. i just wanna quickly get myself working so i dun have to argue with her over such matters, and if worse come to worse, shift out. and it's the most hurtful to see her being so unsupportive of her children.

and mom if u see this i wanna tell u i am very disappointed in you!!!

shag!!!

2007-10-26T22:15:00.000+08:00

been sometime since i last blogged. though i do visit my blog every dae to check the tagboard.

not that i have nth to say. my life is everestly so exciting. but i am too shag to blog. yes!!!

been practising my salsa hip hop and sexy back for Stage arts danz inc coz they are shorthanded with men. so i kinda helped them upon request. it was kinda NOT ME!!! coz i hated hiphop. not that i can't dance it', but it's just too free form and not disciplined enough... so there's a little taxing to catch up with the steps, especially when the rest has already learnt it long ago. luckily i have kenny!!! kenny is the ex member of laballroom enmasse, who was performing with us for the dance alive musical.

salsa hip hop is a fusion of salsa and hip hop together in a dance. it depeicts a scene of a club and 2 groups of people, guys and gers. it's all about playing hard to get and trying to hook up one another. an interesting choreography with nice steps. nice costumes too! especially mine!

sexy back!!! its zelia's choreo, a second episode of sexy back I. this is a story of office workers trying to act high class and "atas". all dancers are to be attitude and class... all are dressed in white and must have a black accessory. a very exciting choreography and very image based performance.

costumes had cost me a bomb!!!! black vest from woodlands centre ($30). white school pants from TPY ($30) didn't use it cos it didn't pass as it's slightly blueish based. white pants from CWP ($70). white belt from woodland centre ($15). white school shoes from woodlands centre ($17). so u guys go calculate how ex it is!!! broke liao.... but it's worth the money! it's damn nice. damn class, damn atas and damn benji!!!!

to add on i think i am going to buy a few more things when i have the money....
1) white pointed shoes from BATA
2) black hair with white highlight from Kimage
3) white socks
4) white fedora hat
5) black and white skinny tie

damn kewl rite!!! i'm going to wear this to mum's d and d. will damn stand out lor...

so many things to buy. and too few money. luckily i am kinda helping j and j with teaching at schools. kick boxing, hip hop, ethnic fusion, aerobics, and some other lessons. phew... hope i can get more money.... coz i got many things to buy....

and attention to all, we will be planning to go BKK again next year after chinese new year. anyone wanna join? budget travelling and accomodations. seek total 8 to 12 people so we can book excursion bus so its cheaper. tag on the board if keen.

surprise!!!

2007-10-14T00:59:00.000+08:00

surprise!!!

ok todae goes like this.

woke up at 945 am coz mom woke me up again! why can't i just sleep longer for my weekend?

spend the morning waiting for dad. after having bfast. and i almost got late. went over to granny's place intending to pick sis up coz mom going to uncle's house for mahjong, so sis can play with my cousin. and being wishywashy by nature. she still haven boil water and bathe!!!

mom then dropped me at mrt so i wun be late, coz i will be dragged by the itinery of the 2 old fellow!!! always make me late!

then went over to dance arts for class!~ and surprise! i wasn't late! in fact i was the earliest!! hehe... the rest subsequently arrived and we got thru the practice with many major changes!!! OMG monday will be a harsh dae!!!

then after that rene zhi ping brian and shiying got off first coz they need to get ready the steamboat. then me benn peter and poodle went over to KFC for some munch. i did eat coz i was waiting for the feast at zhi ping's house. then after munch benn and poodle left. me and peter walked around funan and being peter, he's got new things to buy again! iPOD nano!!! damn cool la. if i have the money i will also get myself 1... hehe...

headed to b-batok and waited for all to go over.

dinner was sumptuous, many food, in fact too much to digest...

watched high sch musical and hairspray. then took lotsa fotos!!!

then all were called out for games... BUT SURPRISE!!! a birthday song and a birthday cake! i was so caought off guard!!! chocolate cake!!!! haha so they intended to celebrate panda's and my bdae together... was kinda touched!!!

ok it was a pleasant surprise... so i still do have bdae song and cake afterall... i thought since my bdae is over so i shall get over and done with it, wait for next year and pray that i get those again... but wait! i dun need to ponder so long!!!

thanks frens... it's lovely!

then while we were going home, nick carried jermaine for dunno wad reason. then shan carried zee and gave chase. of coz i wun lose out! i carried the smallest! rene!!! haha... of coz i won. then peter carried treasa and caught up soon. and the last to join the game was josh and lil fir!!! haha.. wad a way to end the dae...

nice DULC session todae and i thank all for ur efforts!!! love em...

birthdae over!!!

2007-10-10T04:37:00.000+08:00

ok i'm offically 19 now so i shall behave like 1.

firstly i want to thank the following ppl for wishing me happy birthday. (in no particular order)

treasa
evelyn
zee
yeeshan
peter *thanks for the treat*
weilin
dex *thanks for the treat*
pauline
rene
melvin
andrew seow *thanks for the drink*
jerome
jeremy
marilyn
andre
panda
(and whoever i did not include ur names, please do tag on the cbox. i will include ur name)

at least i feel better after SA sing me a birthdae song. (after pushing me down for my split)

19th liao.. haiz.

2007-10-09T00:29:00.000+08:00

now i know how unimportant i am to ppl around me...

disappointed.

for the past 3 years, my so called best childhood fren did not call me and wish me happy birthday. good...

and all my frens from my 19 years of life did not wish me happy birthday all my presence in their life does not deserve their attention. good

NO Presents this year. good.

NO birthday cake. good.

NO birthday song. best.

and to my dearest darling. you also nv wish me birthday. champion!

i admit that i am not perfect in this world. but i suppose i do carry out good deeds to people around me, giving them the helping hand from time to time. giving things to them as and when i can.

i dun expect any great thank you gift and announce it to the world that i ever helped them. but sometimes to me, a person's birthday shows his popularity among his frens. and now i know. i am "SSSSSSSSSSSSSSSOOOOOOOOOOOOO" popular. thanks fren. looking at the fren's test by the side... it further proves my popularity.

think it's time for me to reflect, after so much i had contributed to my frens, what have i done wrong to receive this kinda popularity...

i feel so shortchanged.

POWER TO THE PEOPLE!@

2007-10-08T15:12:00.000+08:00

yoz ppl!

tml is my birthday!!! yea gonna anticipate the gifts from my frens... have started to receive gifts from frens!?

yesterdae went out with mom and sis for steamboat at bugis! so full!!! but delicious... yummy... then went around bugis to do some window shopping. coz dun think got anything to buy. haha....

went home thereafter... (slept in the train... hehe recharging?!)

reached home. did my cold mask and watched some TV before changing to go out again!

hehe... went to POWERHOUSE with jerome, jeremy, don, cindy, melanie and rainie. haha was fun. made lotsa frens, like andy, jasper, eugene, jessica, ernest, ceceilia, constance, jean, and the list goes down....

went hoome at 5 plus... damn tired. fall flat... hehe... and i just woke up!!! anticipating BE later... gonna teach the routine again... hope everyone can get it fast so we can have more breaks in between...

then later having another round of celebration. dunno where we going, but most probably would be a makan session at amk ba... that's the only activity i can think of at that late timing...

and yea... gonna end here. will update u guys abt my celebration again!!!

pre-birthday celebration!?

2007-10-07T02:30:00.000+08:00

haha todae is a fruitful dae!

went for breakfast with mom after taking queue no at Loke's clinic. yes skin
problem. we ate beancurd from short street.

then went for shopping at this fashion an PS with mom. had ice monster!!! long time nv eaten this!

consulted doctor after long wait. asked all problems abt skin! make full use of my consultation
*wink*

then went to collect car frm garage and proceed to grandma's place to send my garments for alteration

return home and got ready to go out.

met randy at 7 and went for dinner at modesto, opp orchard hotel.

dinner was delicious. salad dish, pizzas, and pasta in creme sauce (this is heavenly!) THEN DESSERT!!!! LEMON SHERBET WITH VODKA!!!~*FAINT* nice thirst quencher and brain freezer. tiramusu and ice cream too!

then went to cineleisure thinking of bowling and i found out that the bowling alley no longer exist. we then proceed to party world for k box. sing till my voice now abit sexy? *hehe*
took night rider home, and pick up my bike at the mrt. haha...

thanks randy for the birthday dinner and singing session! not to forget kk too!

my birthday is 2 more days away! excited! *wink*

BKK Trip Footage

2007-10-05T22:09:00.001+08:00

birthday crush!

2007-10-05T00:19:00.000+08:00

heys long time nv blog.

yesterdae went for waxing again!!! helping those therapist with their practice. think can become trainer soon!

then went to watch movie with dex... haha he celebrating my b dae first (sounds like he very nice, but actually is he wanna watch movie!)

cycle all the way from my house to yishun mrt!!! xiong sia... didn't know that the road is actually steep. had a hard time cycling.

then today went for NYAA ceremony, boring sia... then went for reception... eat like hungry ghost sia. haha no la. not me. the juniors!!! hehe... then cycle home... *faint*

many has been asking me for my gift list.

basically, anything is fine, as long as it is useable. dun give decos coz i have lots alr.
practical gifts has been added to my wishlist at the side. pls do look. dun mean 1 person buy 1 gift, i know it's ex. maybe share? haha i know u all always in gps de! we are humans right?

even if u buy make-up online for me also can. sephora got quite a few good ones. go look and see!!! maybe get something for urself too. highly recommend their products. haha bought lotsa make-up in BKK, for the club ok!!! stock up for performances.

talking abt performance, be is doing fine with the current batch of juniors. the hardworking ones are hardworking, but the lazy ones are as usual lazy. potential batch but weak in the mind.

bkk trip is fun! go see my album above!

bought lotsa stuffs! and new t-shirts especially! will be going again after new yr!!! any1 wanna join? pm me!

finally, hope that u guys will wish me happy bdae on tuesdae~!

pain pain

2007-07-03T19:44:00.000+08:00

OMG i did 2 painful thing todae.....

firstly, i went for my brazilian waxing at allison's mom studio.... her mom opens a beauty school teaching students.

then i went for naval piercing..... yes the area ppl used to call belly... yups...

painz.... and the outcome is quite good.... now still trying to bear with the piercing. believe that it will be good...

also got back our results for marketing research... i still remember that dae we have "the new paper new face" performance at the atrium right before the ICA. and i was so warm when i reach the lecture hall. the paper seem easy and i finished it in 20 min. i tot it was me who dunno the questions. i was the first to leave the place...

and surprise!!! i got the first in class, together with kulaa!!! 46/50 marks... muahaha... didn't expect it actually.... tot i failed... haha...

overall today is a good day....

WHY CHEWING GUM IS BANNED IN SINGAPOREA

2007-06-11T00:49:00.000+08:00

Singaporean was on holiday in Malaysia.. He was having his coffee, croissants, bread, butter & jam at the hotel's coffee house. A Malaysian man who was chewing gum, sat down next to him & started a casual conversation.

Malaysian : "You Singaporeans eat the whole bread?"
S'porean : "Of course."
Malaysian : "We don't. In Malaysia, we only eat what's inside. The crusts we collect in a container, recycle it, transform them into croissants & sell them across to Singapore."
The Malaysian then had a smirk on his face while the Singaporean listened in silence.
Malaysian : "Do you eat the jam with the bread?"
S'porean : "Of course."
Malaysian (chuckling): "We don't. In Malaysia, we eat fresh fruitfor breakfast, then we put all the peels, seeds & other left-overs in a container, recycle them, transform them into jam, before we sell it across to Singapore."
This time, the Singaporean retorted : "Do you have sex in Malaysia?"
Malaysian : "Why, of course we do"
S'porean : "Do you wear protection"
Malaysian : "Of course! We wear condoms."
S'porean : "And what do you do with the condoms once you've used them?"
Malaysian : "Stupid question ! Of course we throw them away."
S'porean : "We don't. In Singapore, the government secretly puts them in a container, recycle them, melt them down into chewing gum & sell them across to Malaysia, ... & that's the real reason why we banned chewing gum in Singapore."

P.S. - Just a joke to lighten your day. I think I'll stop going JB for the time being in case I get mugged. ;-)

no money!!!

2007-05-24T00:16:00.000+08:00

musical is finally over... and we are having the new intake!!!

this batch of new juniors are potential, but some are attitude... nvm u can try to act kewl and i will get u down under....

particularly there's this junior, from audition till now been keep joking and going against me... as in like tai gang with me... kinda irritated but she managed to get my attention... she's potential i must say... but haven get to partner her yet...

zelia has started to partner me and train tango... her back is hindering her from executing the steps... haiz.. but she's trying hard la... but sometimes quite irritated by her punctuality problem... abit no sense of urgency... will try to train more with her... coz we dun wanna lose to those cocky ppl from NP... and we wanna make a statement at the comp! will start on waltz soon!

been trying to save more, coz i need to help her pay for her quickstep class... she deserve to go for the class. firstly, she is my partner. secondly she is willing to work hard. thirdly it will help in partnership!

then again. also have to pay for my club fund... coz belman is coming!!! oh yea latin! i'm loving it!

competition costume also have to worry.. i dun wanna wear that white outfit for musical. abit too outstanding! besides, the outfit abit too small to begin with... ladies.. zelia did not perform standard ballroom item during musical. so have to redo one for her...

we had planned a maroon outfit that is convertible... can wear as ballroom and latin after detaching the bottom... low cut at the back and rhinestones and crystal front. more details will be discussed and my dearest ze will come up with a draft.

starting to worried abt cost! i have to pay for extra private lessons! i have to pay for club fund! i need to pay for my costume! i need to pay for her coztumes! i need to pay for shoes! i need to pay for my own living expenses! but all and all. i still feel it's worth it, as long as we make every cent value by working extra hard.

to save up for all the upcoming cost, i saved on my $70 discounted levis jeans, $60 make up kit (anyways i am the make-up costumes and hairdo head for BE!) $24 blusher, $20 necklace, $55.90 formal pants. $8 movie ticket for blades of glory.. OMG! i cannot believe that i can resist these temptation... passion overcomes all!!! and i love dancing!!!

braindead ghost

2007-03-30T15:52:00.000+08:00

it's been 43 days where i've been queueing for my nasi lemak.... and day by day i am going for lunch earlier. and i still dun get to eat... haiz... fated...

tired of queueing... and tired of dancing.... i give up...

went to michelle and why pong yesterdae... went to visit them but they were busy. so just gave an excuse to sae i wanna buy shoe brush. got it and left... ... come to think of it. having the shoe brush is kinda useless. i will not be using it after musical... maybe will keep it in club room for them to use....

getting weaker day by day.... but i will still press on.... for the sake of peter.... coz it's a promise...

braindead corpse
benji

update of my terrible life

2007-03-29T17:31:00.000+08:00

here i am still alive to narrate to you the terrible life of benjamin foo hong cheng again

for the past 42 days, i have been queueing everydae, to eat the nasi lemak at the food centre.... (it's not exactly fantastic but i just like it)... and for the past 10 days, i am always the exact person in the queue being shooed away coz the nasi lemak is sold out..... one more and i'll be able to eat the nasi lemak! haiz....

dancing was my fav pasttime, but now it's my most dreaded torture....

musical is round the corner and we are all getting ready. but the though of partnering her is a burden, hassle, torment, wadeva words i can use to describe....

i am really tired of pulling her from the rock bottom. especially when she is resisting help. her passion is rinsed out... and i am totally drained out....

people always label us as the best couple but they do not know the hardship that we went thru. scolding her time and again is as miserable to me. i am helping her but she just dun get it into her fucking brain.... she kept assuming that i am against her.... and i am tired. washing my hands off.... never again i will scold her...

who will actually see wad we went thru? at the end of the day, on the stage, people will only say, hey look at her she's so good! but behind the stage while practicing, people will only say, hey ben stop scolding her. she's a ger, she's ur partner. u shouldn't have scolded her. u are wrong to scold her. and the list goes down... get it? i am always the black face in the club... and i dun think my effort for the aprtnership will be recognised one dae. i am tired.... washing my hands off the club soon....

the basic rules of partner dancing applies... and it seems that it's the other way round for us. i am having a hard time pulling a peice of 100 ton dumbbell across the dancefloor. and i dun see in wad way we are good. it's tiring for me... and it really does affect me.

for all dances, she tried to overpower, though sometimes she doesn't mean it. but when u are up on the stage, people dun care wad u haven been thru, how much u have improved over the short period of time. they only see how bad u are when dancing. PERIOD!!!

not following as a follower, and becaouse of this i have to counter her with an extra force to brign her back.... haiz... how long more can i go? i dunno coz i am really shag....

when we go for tango class, people look good of us and wants to send us for competition. i dispose the idea... coz i dun want to fight a war of such a small probability of success.... besides i am tired.... everytime it's me working the partnership out... haiz... i am tired...

dancing with other ladies is a much lighter chore...... the difference is huge. they follow and they take advice. they feel light and they are willing to improve. all driven by this catalyst called passion for dance.

dance was a enjoyable moment of my life. but today, it is a nightmare, a burning session. and i am burnt to the bones...

i lost all my appetite and i noticed the worn out me.... almost unrecognisable to my close frens... dead was the old benji... the cheerful, optimistic benji.... he was beaten by dance... his most devoted activity....

i promised PETER to finish the muscial and i will... i dunno if i can pull thru but i will try my very very very best to drag this corpse of benjamin foo hong cheng onto the dance floor.....

with this i shall end the miserable life of the braindead

regards,
braindead dancer

Boring

2007-02-13T12:51:00.000+08:00

it's another boring dae....

i am now in my office for attachment...... after being bored for soooooooooo long. i decided to blog since i have complete access to all internet sites.... yes all! think this is the only staff benefit that i can have....

attachment just commenced yesterdae and i started to complain today.

posted to LANWorks Pte LTd. a private company dealing with system integration and SAP, LOTUS and etc. yes IT company.... my whole working experience always got things to do with SAP... and i hated it....

though ppl here is fine, no problems nor conflicts. but they are super unfriendly.... nv tok to them since i started work... as dead as a graveyard...

i ahve my own office.... i mean OFFICE. not cubicle.... air conitioned.... personal ext phone line.... blocked view from all other.... the server unit is right in front, good enough to cover me... my supervisor is not on this level, one level up. no direct supervision.... yeah!!!

no pantry.... but i am allowed to get out of the office anytime to get a drink or wadsoever, so long as i dun go missing for more than 15 min....

haiz..... i missed studying and TEP..... everydae doing mundane work.... so boring.... call and call to update database.... like CRM CSC like tat.... tot was lucky to miss CSC in TEP but i still got it in IPP..... Argggg........

life is so boring...... how i wish everydae is CNY..... so that i no need to go work..... *yawn* .... one of these daes i think will have to resort to hide in the toilet and sleep.... the toilet is very clean..... haha lol... no la things are not that bad....

Think i will be the first in mankind hostory to die of boredom.....

mismatched

2006-10-27T11:25:00.000+08:00

well u must be wondering how i can blog at this timing....

supposed to be in school for lessons... but u guess wad?

i misread my timetable again..... yes for the second time...
yesterdae also same... suppose to start at 10 but i read as 11...... sad sia... didn't mean to miss lessons... but yes... i stupidly misread the timetable...

been busy with work and studies... esp the projects... .damn stressed la... my shoulder getting more and more tensed... .must find time go massage....

work is fun... seeing so many regular comign back to look for me... seems like ig ot a stable base of regular liao... so fun joking with them in the shop... maybe that's the joy of working in retail line... (though it's tiring)

school is as usual.... fun subjects are still fun, boring subjects are stll the sleeping pills... missed quite a few hrs just because of misreading the timetable... and i dunno how come i can misread the timetable... my eyes pa jiao... so maybe time to make new specs...

hope that i will not get debarred.... and hope that i will be able to get some good rest...

rachael is as rachael. busy with her work... .have not been meeting for quite a couple of weeks... heart itchy liao.. sad.... rachael, pls listen to me!!!! stop working!!! take care of yourself. dun go hungry... if not, later not cute liao.... bleah... muacks.... will be waiting for ur off dae.... waetch movie ok???

well... things start to get better and busier... that wad's life is all about.... u slog for ur whole life, achieving nothing but aches.... haha... take care ppl... and see you soon!

Selamat Hari Raya

2006-10-23T13:28:00.000+08:00

Yoz ppl... it's been a long time since i last blogged...

been busy with stuffs that are happening in school and work.

HOA has been doing well... only that sometime get very frustrated with some stucked up people, cheapo customers and ridiculous faggots. (esp those Made in China customers).

School? term has started proper and the lesson plan is scaring me... almost every week is so busy,..... lotsa work and projects to juggle.... pray hard i dun repeat....

Festive season is coming and my off dae got cut... supposed to be off on tue and wed but now have to work both dae... coz every1 in the shop except me are malay..... and i have to do 1 man show all the way.... sianz...

went to gelang serai yesterdae till late, abt 3am... buy baju kurong to wear.... sudden urge to blend into the malay culture... besides, can wear for racial harmony... then can also use for NE project that is coming soon......

whole place was damn packed.... and interesting... the bazaars are so majestic... the scale of the bazaar is so large.... china town and little india cannot be compared lor.... walk till my legs break.... got lotsa nice things... but abit unfair.... ladies kebaya so nice but guys baju kurong is so plain.... too bad... but the sandels are very comfortable....

look forward to hari raya... coz can go visit my frens.... though i am not mly, but i feel like a tourist.... haha... show u guys foto of me in baju kurong when i upload them.

BIrthdae.... Wad's the big deal?

2006-09-29T10:48:00.000+08:00

hmm getting rather bored about life...

things are not as smooth as i thought...
work has been very taxing... bery tiring... everydae has been working for long hrs.. work till i everytime get late for sch.... always laze in the bed and dose off....

sch? well we had started to drift apart from each other... not only me.... but many are complaining about the issue... sad.... i hate this... where is the closely knitted class of marketing?

dance? revo has quieten down... sueann is getting ready to go to australia... fio nv get to contact her... runie... seems to be bothered by his own stuffs.... darren... dead or alive? i dunno... ...

me? serious headache for the past few daes... been bothered by my own fucking life...
i miss my clubbing... i miss music... i miss every1 in my life that i should be missing... i miss my birthdae gifts....

so far no 1 gave me a b dae gift.... sad... think u guys forgotten abt it... just like revo... they gave me a b dae sms in july, sept respectively.... kinda funni that they mistook my b dae.... anyway hope u guys get it right this time round...

anyways... pls dun flood my phone wid b dae msg-es on the dae itself.... i dun wan my fone to burst...

busy life washes all bad memories aside..

2006-09-18T00:53:00.000+08:00

well ppl... sorry for not posting for a long time...

been busy wid work at HOA....

everydae working till i am going mad... but at least i managed to secure a source of income...

work is fun and flexible for me... coz i the boss is my fren. nonetheless, the requirement of work still remains as high...

sleep is getting lesser and lesser....so few that my skin is getting dry and haggared... looks pale as well...

revo is getting quiet... coz all of them are preparing for exams... ppl buck up and reach out for the stars! i believe that u guys can do it!

sch... haiz... been too tired till i fall sick... nv attend sch for 3 daes since wed... still on antibiotics...

but the good news is... there are lots of things for me to buy from HOA.... haha they brought in the mens collections... all so nice.... but mostly the size range is not full yet... so have to wait lor... but i am sure that i need not worry abt chi new yr clothes....

happen to know quite a few ppl from my workplace and seems that what happened in the past is over.... maybe... but i dunno until i see that bitch again... if i didn't flare, means it's over and done with...

cn? well she's still my fren... and secretary in a way... always consult her on sch matters... haha... well thanks....

and HEY!!! MY BIRTHDAE IS COMING!!! my wish list is getting longer....

i wan:

a pair of converse shoes( which hendri is getting for me)
NUM bag
MP3
levis jeans
new wardrobe
topman shirts
adidas watch
a new set of formal wear... esp long pants...
new belt... (the old one gave way liao)
new hairstyle
laptop (mummy is gonna do the job)
driving lessons
new HP
new clothes... the old ones are real old...
bermudas... to go to sch...
sandals from NUM (think calvin will give me discount *wink to calvin*)
sports wear
and new frens.... (after keeping the old ones in my heart)

hehe... greedy right... haha take ur pick of gifts..... i dun mind if u ppl share present la.. i also know they are not cheap.... as long as u are there for me, i dun mind the presents~! It's the thought that counts right? if u can give me those above, that will be great... but if not, even if u give me feather i also happy... coz at least u ppl remember i existed in the world... (not like evelyn... frens so long liao, 8 yrs liao, still can forget my b dae...)

and to revo! my b dae is oct 9th.... not sept 10, nor any other crappy date!! dun send me happy b dae sms in the middle of the night, esp on the wrong dae.... it's really a joke u know! haha...

Lonely and Lost

2006-08-28T20:19:00.000+08:00

God is out to make fun of me....

been brooding thru the person i hated the most....

Although things have past for quite a long time... but i have yet to recover from the stabs that i had..

i realised that the love has far surpassed the hatred... but somehow or rather i just cannot make myself go up and embrace the loved one...

i met that bitch, yes that bitch, after clubbing on sat... Faisal, Haril and some frens were planning to chill out at tentric when faisal suggested to go clubbing... we went along to let loose and forget abt everything... but the least expected came true....

while we were on our way home at abt 3am, while i was walking on the road, i bypassed this van, i turn back as i feel that some1 is looking at me at the other side of the van, and it happened to be that bitch...

time paused.... for that split second, all sorts of feeling went thru me.... it's like mixing all the sauces in 1 and feeding it to me...

i feel like giving a slap or 2 to that bitch... but at the same time, i wished that i could go up and embrace that bitch, crying my hearts out....

unfortunate or lucky, i didn't....

giving a slap will only show how petty i am, wad a narrow minded person i was... hugging and crying will only show that i am weak and cannot do without that bitch...

i wish that i could say things like: i need not slap, cry nor hug..... coz that bitch dun deserve my tears... ;i feel disgusted to hug that bitch... later she spread wadeva diseases to me.... ;slapping will only dirty my own hands.... but i couldn't mouth it out...

love is not an easy game to play with... and i burnt my hands once again.... i dunno when i will pick myself up...

my whole holiday is crashed... for 1 person...

my frens all talked me in to forget and walk on... but easier said than done...

i mean i am not very bad in terms of character and personality... but why god wanna play a trick on me? giving me such a good looking but rotten apple...

this is a whole new season where ppl break off and get hurt... many of my frens broke of in this month... and it affected me very much....

some came up to me to suggest to go steady wid me but i rejected them all... over here i would like them to know that i am sorry, but just not ready to get hurt again.... my mind is brittle and weak...

gimme some time... sorry...

Burnt to D3@TH

2006-08-24T15:19:00.000+08:00

Finally everything has comed to an end...

Surveying has ended... Though we miss the times of going around bugis after that... yes We'd done it... no more standing till our legs give way....

Been very busy wid sch and dance that i dun have much time for recreation. Went for movie wid haril that dae... the fast and the furious tokyo drift... so damn cool la.... will try to go and watch it again...

todae went for a swim... and I GOT BURNT.... the sun was scorching when i was swimming... and the tann was so uneven.... will be going for studio tanning soon...

hmm while looking thru my phone, i realise i took some candid shots during the whole project of surveying....

take a look and have a good laugh....

BSU is coming to an end... Kinda sad... coz i miss the slacking times.... and the joking times.... though it's only a short 6 weeks... but the bond is there, esp between some of us... eating together, shopping together and covering for each other's mistakes.... just wanna tell u guys, u've been great and i will keep u in my heart.

have to buck up for classical modules.... coz i wan my GPA!!! my target is 3.6 and above.... so tat i can go to a UNIVERSITY in singapore... wasn't that hard working in sem2 last yr... so have to make up for it...

and u know what? i got "B+" for my previous stopover! was planning to get "C"for it... though i worked kinda hard.... but interpersonal skills wid the ppl wasn't good... as i expected, my peer evaluation was the factor that pulled me down... and i dun care liao... i'm contented with my B"....
chan say that i am very smart wor..... keep repeating the word "smart" to me.... haha think i real smart la... *BHB*... well he also said that if he was an employer he would employ me for sure.... he also said that my writing skills pro... scored me 80 and 85 for both reports.... WOW... hmm thank you my sec sch tchers.... u made me wad i am todae....

this stopover ar... think i didn't do much leh.... but supervisors had a good impression of me ba... so far no complains abt me..... and probably i know how to lick boots? i dunno but haha...

hope i do well.... finished typing my report.... i mean TEP report... and now have to plan my strategy for personal selling... i hate it... but no choice... must help the sch earn $$$... wad to do, who ask me to join NYP...

wad will classical be like? dunno... but i just wanna get a job... i wanna buy alot of things... wanna have a great celebration for my b dae.... btw... those who see this entry... pls prepare ur share of the present before 9 oct!!! coz i will be turning 18!!! the magic number!

the first thing i will do is to go get my driving licence. Then go clubbing officially!!! show them my IC with pride.... haha so lame rite.... but that's me!!!

dunno wad to get? ask me... and i'll give u the long list of wish list....

0V3R-3$T|M@T3D

2006-08-13T14:12:00.000+08:00

i am very very very very tired....

survey has started and the response is very bad. It's way below wad we had expected. We are suppose to do 35 per dae, but everydae you'll be glad that your daily respondents are more than 20.
stood for so long and my legs are giving way.... then sometimes still have to go for dance after tat..... oh my god!

talking abt dance... we're are getting ready for child aid charity show... but the deadline is like so near... 18th Aug must submit routine tape.. like we haven even choerograph la... then was racking my brains thinkin of steps......... stayed till midnight 3 plus.. then next dae still have to wake up @6. only had 3 hrs of sleep.
seriously i feel that we shouldn't have tried for the thing. firstly we dun have the full strength to perform. fio is busy wid performance, darren got bball, runie having prelims and i have my projects. OMG... then we still have to come up with steps. And i hate to do steps... i can dance but i dun like, dun wish to and cannot come up with steps.
What's more, that delphine is like pushing us to go for so many things. i appreciate the offer but it has to depend on the capability of our timing and deadlines. we are shorthanded and we also have other commitments. if you do not have such a big head, no point wearing such a big hat. u'll fall and die... i have no choice but to admit that my head is too small for that hat.

i am very tired.... very very tired.... so tired that i missed my alarm and got late for survey... was supposed to wake up at 6 to get ready but today woke up @ 1130... cannot even hear the funeral going on downstairs. totally switched off... think will suffer seizure if things gonna continue like this....

GIMME A BREAK!!!!

H@PP| B|RTHD@3 $|NG@P0R3

2006-08-09T09:26:00.000+08:00

yoz know wad? todae's national dae!

haha was damn tired but cannot sleep la....

went clubbing yest and met 2 pretty lass... haha they're both cute and drunk and ya, as usual i offered to send them home as it was on the way... and they both gave me a goodbye kiss... haha... so sweet...

then reached home to watch tv... to make up for what i missed during the weekdaes...

come to think of it, i hate TEP.... it sux... we went to this hotel to do client project( customer satisfactory survey) and we were treated like dirt... the manager was so snobbish... as though the eye grown on the forehead. no wonder so many customers complaint hat the hotel is bad... stood for 5 hrs str8.... OMG... my legs breaking!

hope that this stupid TEP will be over soon....

All in a NEW chapter

2006-08-04T23:28:00.000+08:00

hey hey! ppl i changed a new blogskin!!!

Give me ur comments abt the skin...

hmm well lately was quite slack in BSU.... nth much to do so started to do my cross stitch... hmm girly? i dun think so... it req alot of patience and technique... not many ppl, even the gers can do it!

haha also got some useless stuffs organised by J tan and "Mr bean"... stupid poster design that wasted my time....

Gonna start out our surveying next week.... kinda excited abt it... coz finally got things to do.... will be going to a hotel to do customer satisfaction survey... details are not to be mentioned as to protect confidentiality of client... if not i'll get SUED.... OK!!!

Haven been going for practice for like 2 weeks... kinda sad abt that... and today was having a bad migraine... dunno if tml can go anot... but well gave my promise and i shall drag myself there even if i'm sick....

my pocket abit empty lately... need to go find job liao... ppl if u got any good ones to intro, pls tell me!!! but i mean decent jobs... not those working in complex places... very troublesome rite? haha anyway, pls tell me if u got any....

TR@M@T|$3D

2006-07-24T21:15:00.000+08:00

Haven been posting here for quite some time... and ya these are the things that happened for the past days.

some 1, whom i had nv expected to call me, gave me a ring... and i was very very very disturbed by the call...

yes it's that fellow that has let me down time and again....

to those whom know who's "B"... yes it's that freakin bitch...

"sorry for all the pain i've caused u. hope we're still frens"...

WTF! you think wad u'd done can be striked off with "sorry" i just cannot accept the fact.... and mind u! u still have the cheek to msg me?

"wad have u been doing? made new frens?"...

i've been tramatised enough... gave serious consideration before stepping out to see the world.. .and nope i dun think i will make new frens, at least in the near future... (i am now a porcupine, guarding against every1 around me) and all thanks to u...

"will u still meet up with me in the future?

well i will if i need a sandbag... u know i will not pull my punches....

"i am sorry and i understand that i was very heartless to you at that time..."

i am glad that u know that u are heartless... at least u are not that thick skinned.... and once again apology doesn't mean that u will be forgiven..

"having a bad time at work... **save the details** waiting for bonus b4 leaving to look for new job"

well does that concern me? it will only if u give me ur bonus as a compensation....

"keep in contact ok? "

NO! i dun wanna get involved in matters of the heart, especially with u again!

well all the above is just words of anger.... in actual fact... i know that i am a stupid fool trying to get myself hurt again...

feelings are hard to get by... and yes i still can't get over with "B"... the times are so close... and so sweet that it gives me good dreams everytime i recalls... but as i've said it's all dreams....

if given a chance to turn back time, i will still choose to be with "B"...

And if "B" was to request a patch... i might really get back with bitch if my frens do not stop me... so pls frens... for my sake, if i mention to patch back with "B", knock me against the wall or something and tell me to go and die.... i seriously dunno wad i am doing, coz love really made me blind...

my whole life is ruined...... by the person i loved the most...

F3D UP

2006-07-13T21:47:00.000+08:00

Well was rather annoyed with this incident that happened todae...

well somebody made a tie using barcodes( which is a sch property) to decorate the model in IM and was reprimanded by Baboon/hippo. b/h said that we cannot waste sch properties and the barcodes cost $0.30 each. That stupid somebody still dare to argue back and say that he'll pay for it. B/H then explained that it's not about paying. And ya... i shall save the details...

Then he kept quiet... and every1 knows that he's angry with things. (as usual). Then later he bluttered out this words that really made me saw red. "BUT THERE ARE ALSO PPL WHO USE THE SCHOOL'S PROPERTY TO DO THEIR OWN THINGS. LIKE WE ALSO USE THE SCH PAPER AND COMPUTER TO PRINT OUR PERSONAL SELLING REPORT AND OTHER STUFFS."

WTF! i know u are angry and wanna get ur justice done... BUT PLEASE USE UR ASS TO THINK IF U DO NOT HAVE A BRAIN! u should have known that it's not rightful for us to use sch things to do personal stuffs and u still spill everyone out? are u NUTS? Or u wan everyone to get into trouble just like u? DUH!

Then later we go around tidying up the room, clearing the mess... Then LH packed some mag to be thrown away as they were outdated and no 1 was reading them. Ok la... though she told me to throw outside lest that some1 sees it and flare. but i felt that no point wad. if he found out after looking for his BELOVED mag, wouldn't it be worse?

True indeed, he flared. "how come u all throw my things without asking me? "

"well i didn't know that it's urs, and besides, it's outdated and nobody reads them"

"well u all should have at least asked me"

"well if u wan to keep the mag, u should have brought it home and seal it up in a frame. "

"I brought it here to share it with u guys."

"well as u can see, we're getting busy with things and seldom have time to read them. And why not u ask if we had finish reading and bring them home? u didn't right? so why blame others?"

The whole issue is: WE'RE NOT UR SANDBAGS so pls do not vent ur anger on us. BE A MAN (though i know u are gay). and pls look at urself in the mirror... does any gers behave that sensitive like u? u are just being overdoing urself... making urself look pitiful. and so wad's so big abt depression? trying to make a big hoo haa out of nothing? I think that u might as well go for sex change op and forget abt being a guy... u are disgracing the male population. AND THE GAY COMMUNITY AS WELL... not happy? go and die la! Staying on earth is just wasting the resources and being an eyesore to the society.

The Revo Cult...

2006-07-07T21:03:00.000+08:00

Yea saw my revo blog le... looks kewl!!!.. ppl free must go see ok!

things was as usual todae (boring)... nv expected sch to be that boring.... kinda hated sch...

but both IM and OPS was quite "high" todae... singing and playing a fool the whole dae. haha fun...

world cup is coming to an end and yea... kinda won some bucks... not much la.. still quite ok lor...

And i am going to use the money i won to get myself an MP3... yea... always wanted to get 1 but was budget.... haha ya .. i dun save... that's the prob... any suggestions on which MP3 to get? pm me or tag on the board....

and yea.. i got a new hairdo and it really spoils my dae... now i understand why ppl are having extreme moods after hairdos... it really sucks... gonna dye it black and re-do.... dun care if my hair get split ends... I JUST WANNA GOOD HAIRDO...

wad is the next stopover like??? well just prepare for the worst and hope for the best...

Quote: You must be the change you wish to see in the world. (Mahatma Gandhi)

$M@CK3D

2006-07-05T21:30:00.000+08:00

was smashed by cake when it's not my b dae...

was rather busy in IM during the dae... and went up to cheers to help out coz we're too free... yea...

Busy doing forwarding and stuffs that keeps me busy...

lunch was fantastic... was damn full while we discuss abt the steamboat and bitch abt some ppl...

after lunch was a hard time in sweet n such... the barcode tagging are makin me nuts... and yea.. managed to finish it by 4.40.

went down to IM and discovered that they got a cake for Kia.. and as usual, we sang the b dae song and cut the cake... took up half and played a prank on kia... got it videoed... funni sia... then ppl started playing cream... and yea... i "siam" till far far... .. until this time when hua applied cream on my face... i grabbed a piece of cake and fed her. unfortunately, i aimed wrongly and fed her face instead... muahaha...

things got ugly, we smeared cream like facial mask... and haha... it looks kinda kewl...

played till she drop on the floor and stone there... kia grabbed me from behind and ZHI YI smasehd the other cake that was meant to be eaten, onto my hair and face... shit man... worse cake smash sia... for the whole 17 yrs of b dae i nv get to dirty la... the cream still reeks deep into my skin la.... washed 4 times le... arg...

got home quickly.... took several baths...

and on my com... got a bad news... grassroot called and told sueann that we are not required for performance anymore... Coz they got not enough time... and yea... disappointed...

well nvm we can still use the routine for the private party in july... haha better money somemore... best if fio and sue ann can strip.. well just joking... we dance for art, not for those dirty money... right? sound as though we damn holy la... haha

well tired... wanna sleep... tml gotta write reports.... *yawns*

D|$@PP0|NT3D

2006-07-01T19:09:00.000+08:00

was rather disappointed abt things....

for the whole of the week... i slept for an average of 3.5++ hours per dae... and i still woke up early to get ready for dance...

yesterdae had a bad day puking wadeva i had... and was feverish....... todae purposely skipped breakfast...

rushed off for dance... and every1 was joking all the way... i mean i dun mind jokes, but when it's time to get serious, pls do... took some time to get the right mood..

and btw only sueann greeted me todae... so sad... yes i'm leaving but i am still here... i give respect and commitment... and it went down the drain...

ppl sat in their own groups leaving me at the corner... ignoring me... sad...

time to learn new steps... ppl were harsh... well maybe i too sensitive... and seems rather unwilling to teach... wadeva...

cracked jokes among themselves... i repeat, themselves...

then this whole big fucking gp of cell gp members came and create chaos... i shoouted at them and walked off... coz i am damn tired and sick...

in all... i wasn't welcome at all... the old warm and cosy R3VO-TA was gone... i could no longer say that i feel at home when wid em.. actually intended to reconsider whether i should stay... coz i really wanted to do it together... but today's practice is a huge disappointment...

i have decided... and the decision made my heart bleed....

W@D3V@

2006-06-30T21:53:00.000+08:00

age has caught up wid me...

my eyes getting darker n darker dae by dae... seems that sleeping has becomed a luzury for myself...

todae sch has been fucking busy.... counting money is the dreadest thing i had done... i hated money at that instance...

nth much happened todae... jas n juan asked me out for shopping... feeling that i need to relax and induldge myself in some shopping spree... but later in the eveing, alex reminded me of my appointment wid him... sad... seems that i had to give the shopping trip a go... see how things goes ba...

got home @ 8. my bones seems to split into parts... I AM VERY VERY TIRED... seriously, physically, mentally and spiritually...

finally completed my reports... and got on to msn... sms-ed that sue ann for upteem times asking abt training time... no reply... forget it.. i am not going to waste another 5 cents on useless thigns... i ahve better uses for that... and while i was giving up, thinking of not going to practice, sng replied my msg... and kind aapologised for the late reply... well... haiz...

i seem to get sick of R3VO-TA... as in like, everything is giving me stress... in the past, my sch work pulls me out of my swimming habit, pro team adds on to my commitment, and dance taken up my last hour of leisure time... one dae i will look like mountain tortoise... i miss my bed, my TV, my heeren, my cineleisure, my far east, my bugis, my cinema, my kinokunniya, my starbucks, my clubbing, my frens...

sng, has added on to my troubles... sleepless nights are routinal... till todae... the more i wanna forget it, the more it hinders me... i wanna get a rest, but whenever i get to, i get stucked with sng... haiz... wadeva...

sianz... dun wanna talk abt it le...

D|$H3@RT3N3D

2006-06-29T21:54:00.000+08:00

was very disheartened by stuffs that happen todae....

been very quiet for the whole of todae.... so quiet that i myself become strangers when i look into the mirror... the sulken and haggard face is not the usual bright and lively benji i had ever knew.. in fact the old benji has left since the younger daes... forgotten when i really laughed from deep down my heart...

Dunno wad happened... i had lunch alone todae... maybe i need some time to cool down...

been enduring the torture from my sch... the stress is pushing me to a corner... the dark circles is making me look like the protected animal from the zoo...

taking down all the cold words and cold shoulders given by every1... i dun wish to retaliate, ad i have no more energy to do so... i am tired... really tired....

my b dae is coming in a few mths time... and i will be stepping into a whole new era of my own.... wanna enclose myself in my own world and live in darkness....

sng threaten me to leave revotia if i left... cannot be bothered much.. coz i am too tired... just told him to go talk to sue ann... wadeva... i need a break... i have not been having my leisure activities for a long long long time... i forgotten when was the last time i watched a movie, when was the last time i went to the beach, when was the last time i went swim, when was the last time i went clubbing... tired... it's like rubber band being stretched to the max.... anytime i will snap...

i wanna rest... really wanna rest... please dun make me stay... coz it's for my good....

L|F3 |$ FU|| 0F R3GR3T$

2006-06-28T20:49:00.000+08:00

Has been rather emotional todae....

first thing in the morning i got scolded... for something tht i am not blamed for....
LIM told me to print on-hand stock listing early in the morning. as i wasn't on first shift i told those on first shift to print. then when i reached office, she blurted out like mad dog.... accusing me that i did not inform... WTF... i told liao lor.. i remember clearly... then those from 1st shift told me, the first moment they reached office LIM came and scolded em for not printing it... pls la.. u start car also need to warm engine right???

then nvm... time to do finance.. then do until half i went to print daily sales summary.... then realise still got RS1 in the summary.. then strange wor... went to ask LIM. then she come saying, "u all nv take meh?" F**K la... then everything have to re-write and calculate... she hor... dunno how to become supervisor de lor....

Then forget it... went for lunch.. then that eric dunno do wad.. joined us to WALK to FJ only la.. then dunno went off to work... then juan and jas was discussing abt taking flexi together... asked LIM then she said: how can both take together? later shorthanded... WTF... ppl blk leave also like tat wad. to think tat time Pretty face also nobody somemore lor.. 2 blk leave then the other 2 MC... nobody lor... Fuck la....

Then went back... then the monster told us got sharing abt visual display.... WTF... how come always give last min notice de??? Sickening dae..... went for briefing as told... then came back the LIM kao beh again... say how come so long nv submit finance... as if i can split myself....

went in to take finance doc and $$... then the new "gay" supervisor, lim, called... said he was waiting for the whole afternoon to count the $$$. WTF la.. we started doing at 1030 and have so many FUCK to do... i had enough lor... went up then he ask this ask that... pls la... if i know everything, would u still be asked to be my supervisor????

Then told us to go down and ask LIM... F**K.. then went down, LIM reprimanded for making her wait so long... Told her that lim wanted to count the money... then u also wanna do finance... u think wad ar? i puppet toy isit??? then say: u all should have told me that u all going to let him do finance wad... i scolded her lor... i told her: u 2 should have decided who should be the finance in charge for 2dae... not let us run up and down... so fed up lor...

My whole dae in IM was damn fucked up la... working nonstop no time to even take a proper break.... SHIT THE WHOLE FUCKING TEP.....

went home after closing... and the whole mrt is packed like sardines lor.... reached home... and dinner is still not ready...... MOM wasn't even at home... should have called and told me that she is not home yet and ask me to buy dinner rite??? DUH... then the sue ann told me to change practice to Mondae... coz mon is youth dae... told her that i am no longer youthful and poly has no hoildae on tat dae.. .and u know wad she said??? oh i forgotten ur antique... WTF??? i got pissed and told her that wadeva, ya i am antique....

on the TV and it showed channel 8 stupid show.... everytime also cry... and cry until so fake....
Got really pissed and hot for the dae... decided to go online.. and some stupid idiot flooded my mail... shit the fellow la... DUH...

things got better @ 8. watch SCV and they got the final episode of this show... i was damn touched by the scenes and ya, i cried... the whole episode, none of the acting cast cried.. but the scene just touched our hearts... this is called pro acting... mediacorp, pls improve la!!! we pay subscription charges every year not to see u waste film 1 ok!!!

the episode kinda reflect myself when i was young... was very rebellious and always disobeys instructions... and joining the corps changed me dramatically... i learnt wad is discipline, teamwork and love between each other... sometimes things are not to be mentioned in words... but felt by the heart... and always sae wad u feel before u lose the chance...

i totally wanna forget sng todae... was busy but the thought still remains like a birthmark... arg.... i had always been weak in handling relationships.. CN came todae and i totally ignored her as well... shunning away is my forte ba... dunno wad am i going to do at dance this sat... dun really wanna turn up... coz arg.... i dunno why the impulse.... and i dun see anything great in sng except cute and dance well...

my choice to revoke from R3VO-TA is decided upon... i am not going to change my mind... coz i dun wanna put myself in a difficult position... i loved dancing, and that is the only reason keeping me behind... can't bear it, but still i will leave.. for wadeva sake it is... sorry but goodbye...

gonna find a job for myself... or my bank will always show 1 digit amounts...

quote: There is nothing more truly artistic than to love people. (Vincent Van Gogh)

$iCk

2006-06-27T21:09:00.000+08:00

was feeling damn down todae la...

though slept at 8.30 yesterdae... but was still feeling as tired as before... having a very bad headache wid some kinda fever....

all the way in IM was GOD DAMN F**KING busy... supplier came large amt of goods and we're like in a big mess... sorted out eventually... phew.. but the store is still ver crammed... shit la...

drowsy still coz of the medicine... pui... my taste bud is not working at all lor...

went for lunch wid juan, jas n (mohammad) zhi yi... haha no la... just that he's dark doesn't mean he's a malay... then juan's fren came to join us... then he damn sian lor... wasn't close wid him at first la... dunno who the hack is he in the first place... then after awhile in fusion then like keep suan-ing juan like nobody's business lor... so shoik sia... then let every1 tried my massage skills... haha long time nv massage le... last time in Reds was like washing hair till my hands rot... oh damn sick sia... dun wanna think abt it again...

haha then went down again to get job done... then time flew past... closing.. then went waiting for mom to pick me home... sianz sia... if i had taken MRT i would have reached ages ago... i regretted my decision.... haiz...

hmm got home bathe and ate dinner... went online and sng PM me... said a lot of things... but all abt R3Vo-TA... hmm well told sng off that i am not feeling well and i wanna rest... hmm then feel a sense of guilt... it's like i purposely flare to get away from sng... but sng was nice... told me to rest well.. and even advice me not to on air con to sleep... i was damn ***arg*** and i said: can u not be so nice to me? i dun wanna get anything more than frens... haha childish right? i also think so...

well wad is said cannot be taken back... well... maybe i should quit R3Vo-TA.. just to have a break from sng... hmm maybe i should, after the performance...

We came so far together, and asking me to part from the team is kinda sad... but i just wanna focus on my studies and dun wish to get distracted... distant myself from temptations might be a good alternative... cooling down alone is good... at least for me... dun wanna feel awkward during practice and under-perform as well... haiz... can some1 like advice me?

quote: Love is an irresistible desire to be irresistibly desired. (Robert Frost)

C0NfU$3D

2006-06-26T20:03:00.000+08:00

well haven been posting for quite a few daes... been busy wid stuffs in the dance gp...

have been planning for the costumes.. and it's giving me headaches... still having my fever.... since saturdae...

R3Vo-TA is getting on track... members are quite united i can say... oh ya... we recruited sng... and it's like so happy la... Coz it's me who discover sng!

sng is very cute... and i kinda had a crush. the smiles damn cute la... hmm sng's kinda attached with this guy la... then have been chatting on the fone very sweetly... hmm so sad... haha.. well maybe not meant to be mine in the first place... so can only carry torch for ...er hm... well where am i thinking... just been reminded by sue ann that no BGR in R3V0-TA... though it'd be nice if i can hold sng's hand to dance... haha...

well back to business... kayly promised to design a pair of shoes for my performance... haha longing for it since donkey yrs ago lor... muahaha... i can finally have mine...

Chang also told me abt the NTUC scholarship application wor.. think our klass only got a few who was offered that la.. so honored... but dunno if my application will be accepted... if can then mom's load will be lighter...

hmm well feeling damn sick todae... have been wondering wad sng is doing in sch.. well first time i fancy some1 so young... haha but disappointed that with the news of attachment..

haiz... well told myself to focus on studies and not think of BGR... and now i'm getting into this big shit again... DUH...

b|3@hZ

2006-06-20T21:24:00.000+08:00

haha kinda excited abt todae's match..... now my mind is filled with world cup...

was bored to death at IM todae..... not busy at all... teh whole dae was practically looking at the odds of the WC... had a hard time placing bets... quite hard to decide coz these matches are hard to guess the winnings... pary hard that i will win...

oh ya yesterdae's betting won me $19.25... though abit small la... but afterall it's still a bonus for me... yea... switzerland and spain didn't fail me... todae betting more le.. coz got capital...

haha todae betting on lotsa stuffs.... first i bet on Gp D winner = portugal, Gp A winner = Germany, sweden VS england = eng wins by 2 goals. portugal n mexico = hard to guess... coz mexico also quite good... so i buy D-H, H-H and A-H... anyways even if the lowest odds come out. i still got $$$ to get... lastly i got ivory coast VS serb and montenegro...

pray hard i win wor.... bet my whole week's allowance.. if lose then i everydae eat air liaoz....

haha... well come back to IM... todae think monster went up to my blog and knew tat i'm calling her monster.... well it's just a nick la... i also give alot of ppl very bad nicks wad... dunno wad to give her so call her monster lor.... haha.... *very bad right... that's me!!! *

Oh ya... Mr Chan was giving Appraiser todae as well.... give me rather good comments wor... btu still can be improved de la... think his description of our performance rather interesting... he uses the driving gear as a analogy.... say u are @ which gear n u ahve room for improvement... haha cute right???

oh talking abt gear.... LiHua cannot pronounce it prpperly.... think she pronounce it as Gale... then jack go make fun of her.... eileen also wor... haha well every ppl will have their own mis pornounciation... like me... i cannot pronounce salmon correctly... haha...

well nth much le ba.... that's another boring but exciting dae.... hope all my predictions will come true and bring more income to my pockets.... *winks* ............

Tired.....

2006-06-19T21:03:00.000+08:00

todae was the first dae of the week, also the first dae i return to sch after my block leave.... BORING dae....

overslept todae... and mom fetched me to sch as it was on the way... and sad to say... i got later... the expressway was jammed....

monster todae was on MC... so happy...

oh btw just got to know a secret.... u know Mr. hawaii from fusion... he actually liked monster!!! OMG!! so bad taste wor... i tot that he could have better taste... haiz... dunno wad he sees in her...

whole dae was slacking in IM... then went to cheers to get bfast... got the sunshine pizza... quite nice... just that the crust too hard...

then was discussing abt bets of the world cup... hmm todae's match was Togo vs switzerland, saudi vs ukraine, and spain vs tunatia.... hmm hard to bet worz... the odds so low... then the past few match was so unpredictable.... sianz sia... so only bet 1/2 goal for switzerland and 1/2 goal for spain... pray hard i win... if not no $$$ liao...

was looking at the singapore pools website all this while to see which match should we bet... but no $$$ le... maybe tml win $$ le then buy more...

haha seems like IM getting more and more like gambling den.... all bcoz of world cup... well just a reminder... it's ok to gamble once in awhile in small amt, but dun put in too much... or u'll ruin urself...

too tired to follow the match... sleepy le... so tml just wait for results lor... haha lazy right? tt's just me and me just right... no extra preservatives or flavouring... *wink*

Long time gone...

2006-06-18T22:27:00.000+08:00

well... hmm was quite busy wid stuffs these couple of daes... and wasn't in a good mood to write stuffs...

hmm regarding to my posts on june 13, regarding CN... unfortunately she saw it.... if u notice the tagboard...she did post something on it... go see ba..

well actually my intention was to clarify things to make life easier, to be frens if it didn't work out... and since she gave this kinda reply( which defeats the purpose of me writing the blog entry) so be it ba... ...

yesterdae went to DSC clinic to get myself tested for HIV... coz my b dae coming... wanna~~ hmm how should i put it... to and to my parents and myself that i'm safe...

then after check up went to genki sushi wid sue ann, runie and fiona... and it was fun... first crew outing worz.... great experience....

went for dance practice at esplanade... then ashley was there... oh ya hor... ashley was wondering if he was in our crew... didn't we discuss whether we wan him in or not? he's rather negative abt himself, saying htat he's not good enough... maybe we should give him some morale support? that's what fren are for isn't it? afterall he's quite all rite wad...

then after practice went home wid ashley followed... coz he got nowhere to go... he's gotta go his father stall help out in lat3 night at yishun... dun wan him to stay out and led astray... wad a kind me..... (bhb)

watch dance clips from youtube... and some breakdancing.. kinda kewl... and some idiotic clips.. funni wor...

todae was normal lor... woke up late... then michael come to eat lunch that i cooked... then watch tv while we play mahjong wid my neighbours lor...

then went to dance class and i happen to meet xue qi's mom... chatted abt her life and was rather symphatethic... haiz... as i mentioned... life is nv a bed of roses... just do ur best ba...

came back and then michael complain bad tummy...say my fault... but cannot be wad... if my food wrong then i will also get it wad... hmm got worried abt him lor... promised that if he still didn't recover by tml, go see doc and i'll pay... kind rite??? haha

well... dun think i wanna get ivolved in LTR le... still got another 1.5 yr b4 i go NS... and it's hard to maintain it... so think i will focus on studies... and get my distinctions... (hopefully la)...

ok la... my block leave over le... tml gotta go back sch and see hippo, monster and that u know who.... pray hard that the remaining 5 weeks is easy to pass..... bleah.....

$0B $0B....

2006-06-15T21:32:00.000+08:00

well yesterdae did not write anything up here... coz was very busy and vexed abt certain things...

received a very shocking msg when i got home... and that ruins my everything... do not wish to elaborate it here... and pray hard that everythign goes well... amen...

todae purposely stuff myself wid loads of things... went jogging early morning... then went to the back to get my new atm card( lost my wallet recently). then they intro me wadeva debit card... so took 1 lor... anyway free wad... (typical singaporean doings)

then went to eat wid grandma... well might not have the chance again ba...

went to sch to meet CN and that jeannette... reached, but they finished lunch le... then too bad lor.. went around shopping arcade visiting b4 i go back to IM... then sat for awhile then got busy... then sad to say, kia was found out using MSN in the room and that baboon cum hippo say wanna issue warning letter. sad sia... but i seriously think that it's overdoing lor... no point make ppl dae so bad right... but wad to do? she use her hips to think wad... (think u guys get wad i mean. )

then was informed abt graduation... then dunno if pro team was involved.. hmm so gave relevant ppl a msg to see if they know everything.. then the tcher i/c gave me a scolding.... wad the fark* she says: you should have asked ur president, jacinta... you shouldn't have come directly to me, if not why would we want a president for? you are a professional and need to think n act like 1.

well there are a few issues being addressed.

i know nuts abt the president. i also dun ahve her contact! how to ask?
it's a mass sent msg to the group. so how would i ahve noticed she's in the sent list? i dun give it a fuck...
it's always safer to ask her directly... and much faster...
pro team always give last min notices, HOW PROFESSIONAL!
communication in Pro team alwys have different msges passed around... who knows which is the real?
since the president has been elected... how come there is no contact or agenda or at least a list of contact for the excos? how are we gonna communicate if we dun ahve? i know some have their contacts, but dun ake things for granted that every1 has! Pro team should show some professionalism..
i was just asking out of kindness and responsibility ( or i should say commitment, which they always mention). must u be that pissed abt that? i am pissed bat the operational attitude of pro team wad...

well think that's it b/w me and pro team... i am not going to participate for any pro team events... shit them with all the commitment and value-added learning.... i dun give it a damn anymore! to think that we always do our best for pro team in all the events, unlike the others who dun bother abt the team at all. and yet they give us this kinda treatment.... we show concern abt the graduation, being scared that we are to be utilised but not informed, and they scold u like fuck... this actually shows how professional they are... it's just all but scam.... everytime give last min motice and treat us like odd job labourers. rehearsal make us do rubbish work... wait whole dae n do nth... waste time lor... u guys have loads of time to waste but i am not going go for it again!!!

to my fellow pro team mates... think abt it man... how many a time are we treated like patriots of a war? we're just like slaves at their beck n call... sometimes even come back on weekends to help em.. then all they say is well done and this is wad u should have done.. everytime ask we all do sai gang... always psycho us, say u have given ur words to be committed.. then who's the ones that are not committed? and what happens to them? them we those who are contributing get shit...

todae went to a few places to send the strudels... shag sia... went to clementi, bedok, pasir ris, west coast, raffles place, somerset, woodlands, chua chu kang..... dots... like 1 dae singapore tour la... then went to CWP to send trudels for yao de... coz he help me collect pie tml to give cai (aka sammi cheng and cyndi wang)...

then went to the w collection to play mind games... wa play until my eyes tired... also went to arcade to play games... play until my blister came up and whole body aching...

went home at abt 8 plus then the strudel almost went bad... tried.. but not nice... CN also say maybe lao hong... then like waste $$$ lor... well ar ya maybe it'll be the last...

todae went to return lu's mom money as well... dun wanna owe her la... later owe till the dae i die...

just so pissed wid things todae lor.... everything seems to go wrong... esp pro team... so much for my efforts... shit u....

D@NC3 M@N|A

2006-06-13T21:45:00.000+08:00

today is very purplexed...

Woke up @ 10pm... then went to get shower and changed before i cook bfast... (sounds routinal rite?)

Hmm was re-tying my shoelace for my ADIDAS ( all dae i dream abt sez) shoes. Then realise that i'm late!!! Grabbed my bag and locked my doors...

Kept praying that time will stop for me... msg sue ann that i will be late... prayed hard that i will not be reprimanded... luckily she good mood....

how i wish that i have my wings... but just too bad.. ran for my life.... the moment i reached my destination, i was like - i see the finishing line lor... it's pratically the "finishing" line.... i'm finished...

bad news: i'm late...
good news: i'm not the latest...

only sue ann, brian (dunno who's that) was there... was like *phew... kinda angry la... rush like MRT (mad rushing train) then still have to wait....

go do my warm up... (which i kinda have already done with all those running).. then fiona came shortly after...

cut all the crap... we did chat on lotsa stuffs b4 the *** te de*** "Superstar came (well actually not superstar la.. we just wan his speakers)

still dare to crap the hell out of nowhere when he's late..... trying to find excuse and said lotsa things b4 he sashayed to do his warm up... *pissed*
started to do things as though he has no bones... (i mean not at the right time to display that trait)

things start to get better after some scolding and joking.... hmm maybe that's our style...

interesting part of all: the freestyle dancing we all had... was kinda funni... fiona showed improvement.. but this time round.... sue ann and runie was totally out of place... they were so intimidated by brian.... and he's hell of an ass... dun feel that i will like him in the group... he's actually a nice person but with some kinda AP...

oh ya forgot to mention this fellow... ashley.. he's a very nice person, at least better than b****... very polite helpful... and think he initiated to learn our steps.... maybe he's keen? well i leave it to sue ann...

finished practice @ 5.32...

hop onto the train and slept thru the whole journey... maybe i'm too tired. dreamed of CN.... well kinda good dream...

(well hope she doesn't see this... )
this is how it goes: was in sch doing my daily routine... then went to cheers to get a drink and saw her... chatted and she says she sick... then ask her to drink more water etc.... then later on my way home see her not feeling well... then held her hands to the mrt.... ask a gentleman to give the seat to her... haha... very bad rite??? but for CN i will do it la... then bring her down the mrt b4 i left... she called me later to say thanks and hmm got mushy contents wor... then the mrt jerked... that spoils my dream... well at least it's better than nth....

so wad's actually between me and her?
to be truthful... i also dunno...
maybe i'm overly sensitive or i wasn't doing it right?

sometimes she will start to initiate msg-es to me... then hmm quite concern me lah... to me a nml fren will not do this lor.... i mean the content she sent rather odd la... not mushy but abit too concern le ba?

then sometimes will look for her for lunch.. then hmm sometimes the way she talk like very odd to me leh... last time we talk not like tat 1 leh... prefer the way she talk to me in the past... to reduce my hallucinations...

ar ya things are difficult to explain when u guys who are reading this is not in my shoes... it's just so odd lor...

well pls tell me that i'm just imaginating things...

she did tell me not to stress her, when i msged her abt how i felt abt her on 06/06/06, after my uncle's wedding, when i was drunk... this is how the msg goes... (exact words used) *xx dont stress me laaa. xx boo... go rest! rest well!*

hmm this reply seems to be different from the last reply i got when in yr 1 sem 1... (maybe i'm reading too much into it? ) she rejected me str8.. .well think the whole class knows abt it lor... when chang and ron keeps disturbing me and her till we both very irritated....

how i feel abt her... 100% truth.... i did like her quite abit... the feeling rather comfortable... not as like those big hoo haa love, but those small waves in ur hearts and mind... think this is the correct feeling ba.. if not i'll die of heart attack one dae... she's like those good gers that i'm not afraid to bring her out n sae she's mine...

just dun wanna get stress up by this matter la... let us go wid e flow lor..

she's like so pissed that time when my IM ppl sayed something abt her and me some time ago.. it's like we were passing the books to some juniors @ LTD4. then walked pass em... then my legs long ma so i walk faster while she's behind... then they said: dont need to walk so far apart de la... *in a sarcastic way* then it's like so irritated la.. then at LTD4 then lee added on... "so how's ur larling getting?" that's it man... she was like fuming mad lor...

some weeks after then i heard from jeannette.. that she feels very pissed wid it...

purposely not meet her for lunch for the rest of the weeks... dun wanna get things worse...

well all i hope is : ppl pls dun fan the wind and light the fire (shan feng dian huo).... if we're meant to be, we will eventually, but if we aren't, then i hope that frens still exist b/w us... dun wanna get things out of hand till we're too embarrassed to even say "hi" when we see each other..

misty moods

2006-06-12T22:14:00.000+08:00

todae abit moody...
weather was good... sunny...

woke up rather late... coz this week's my block leave!!! muahahaha... finally can get away from work... get away from monster and that "u know who" from our office.....

packed up my area todae... infested wid all the dusts... so dusty lor... as though i am in the desert.... hmm come to realise something.... i got lotsa clothes to dump... packed em up and throw em out... the feeling like soooooooooooooo.... *shiok*... think going on shopping spree again... i pity my wallet... any1 willing to sponsor me?

also found some memories of my younger daes... how "beng" i dress and how stupid i look... well i shall save the details... maybe my sec sch and pri sch frens will know...

saw suwen's blog... she is as usual so 38.... haha *ops* well she used to be the 24/7 radio of our class... since pri sch she nv changed.... saw the bikini fotos... hmm nothin much to see leh... should learn from tammy(NYP de) to buy those hmm bust cream... haha... *very bitchy rite... that's me!!!

went to the kitchen to see what shall i whip up for lunch, but only got egg.... so made some fried rice... and it's like long time nv cook then miss the kitchen...

ate then jasen called me... ask him to come over and help me wid the blog... but he didn't help me much.. he forgotten the codings as well... but at least he got me the dreamweaver...

checked my mailz... and searched for more links from all my frens... managed to get some... but not all my frens la... hope that all my pri and sec frens who saw this, pls e-mail me ur url of ur blog... will appreciate that greatly...

had some hard time figuring out how to use this blog... well will still try to bring in better stuffs to this blog...

*yawns* getting late.. tml still got lotsa programmes lined up.. so catch up wid ya ppl again...

Zhi yi sleeping... *gotcha!

First Time

2006-06-12T00:39:00.000+08:00

well first time creating a blog... not very familiar abt things... so hope u guys dun mind the shabby work... haha... just trying to test things out....
well tired... so not going to add anymore things...

*yawns*