it's coming back again!!!

the disappointment in this family!

i had never come across a mother, capable of going on to holiday one after another, to tell the son to quit something he loved most, giving an absolutely unreasonable excuse.

the msg goes like this: ben go quit ur club. i dun have money for you to continue the dance. if u wan go take from your dad!

my question is: you dun have money to let me take my lessons, then you have money to go KOH SAMUI and XIAMEN. so wad are you trying to say? u are just concerned about yourself? ur own enjoyment?

it has always been the problem in this stupid family. u guys are concerned about yourself and being so self centered. always it is and it was just a wishful thinking that u guys have changed after last christmas incident.

mom has always known for my 3min temp in other stuffs. but this is my most wanted dance and i have gone all out to go for it. and i am just induldging in things that i want. neither did i cause harm to anyone, nor cause difficulties to any lives. and i dun understand which mother would ask her children to quit things that is not wrong and good for his future.

all parents i know are sending their children for all sorts of courses. ballet, piano, swimming, ice skating, acrobatics, gymnasium, painting, and many more. their parents are not very rich either. they just want their children to learn something and make them a better person. they went all out to find the best teacher, the best centre to nurture their child.

wad have my mom done in comparison???

she had never made me breakfast for me.
she had never priased me for doing good in sch.
she had never make my bed.
she had never been anxious about my studies.
she had never been uptight when i fall sick.
she had never fed me when i was ill.
she had never known wad i actually liked to drink or eat.
she had never known when i an happy and wad i am happy about.
she had never known how much she'd hurt me.

she always assume that i am a bad boy.
she always think i can be indepedent.
she always think that we are still in the stone age.
she always compare us with her younger days.
she always complain about the mess in the house when it was OUR house, not my house.
she always cook lousy food and say we waste food.
she always disturb my sleep.
she always plan things according to her timetable.
she always buy lotsa stuff home and let them rot at home.
she always not at home.
she always think that it's my fault.
she always my mom, whom i loved but does not love me.

i want to dance... but if i dance i will not be able to work and support myself.
and it's just so sickening to see mom and get mad always. i just wanna quickly get myself working so i dun have to argue with her over such matters, and if worse come to worse, shift out. and it's the most hurtful to see her being so unsupportive of her children.

and mom if u see this i wanna tell u i am very disappointed in you!!!