i am super tired.....

sch has officially started and i am still adapting to the new sch term....

practice is as usual just that we have more to practice. waltz and froxtrot.
competition is coming and we have extensive training coming up. i will be doing samba with pauline for team match and grade c with puay loo... new partnership and i am so excited!!! worried as well coz bellmond dun have time for private class. means we have to use back the stupid choreo that i dun like at all. the rhumba is fine but i dun like the jive and chachacha. sianz. hope that he can squeeze some time to do a chachacha choreo for us.

NAPFA is round the corner! 7 dec will be dooms day. so to get myself well prepared. i have started a set of hell training... so far, tuesday i had a gym session and swim thereafter. wednesday i had a slight stretching session and a swim! yesterdae i went jogging while waiting for DEX (which he thereafter pang seh me coz he had something on), then i went gym and the swimming again!!! hopfully all these can help me pass my 5 stations and 2.4km...


i dun like sch. though this semester i only have 2 examinable modules... and it's my last semester!!!

i feel like working for jerriene again. coz the money is easy! $25 per hr to assist teaching classes. somemore all the classes nearby 1... but sch holiday now. so no job...sianz...

i need money to pay for my classes!!! any1 wanna sponsor me????

Haiz...

life has been very busy for the past few weeks. and tml i will be returning to sch. which means to say i have less time to blog again.

things have been going rather well.

firstly all the performance has been cleared and i am glad to say that i have made no mistakes in my steps for the whole of the performance!

then i have quite successfully finished all my girls' hair and make up with some help fromt he seniors and cindee.


mom's d and d is still quite ok. except zelia's lateness....

audition response is better than SA danz inc. and all have been accepted into the club. so welcome juniors!

why pong and michelle class has started and is FUN!


there are also things that does not go too well...

i am not partnering pauline in any dances, though i did ask her abt it for more than 3 times. no reasons were given and i am kinda pissed abt that. anyway it's her choice and as a dance cap i still have to help her in whateva way i can.

and i am thrown with shiying all of a sudden. just that she is a senior and she does not have a partner and peter owes her one. then i have to sacrifice myself to partner her? i think it's crap. not that shi ying is not good. but our style is different!

cindee is trying to get me to partner her for 29th dec comp. i dun think it's a good idea coz same thing, our style is too different. we can try to compete but we will not go far...

finally went out with my fren. and we went for movie (bee movie). then went for some food. we were rather quiet. and then i was invited to join clubbing with their groups of frens. things initially went well. but sometimes get irritated when ppl started to get too close and intimidating to my fren. feels like stabbing me. and my fren is not doing anything! then wad else can i do? if i am helping, and she might just say i kaypo and ungentleman. haiz. so i just left soon after...

maybe i'm just out for a simple person who is just mine and only mine. and i promise i will nv bring a date to club. i prefer monogamy!

and i am a gentleman (at least this time round) i kept my hands to myself. though i thought otherwise...

it's coming back again!!!

the disappointment in this family!

i had never come across a mother, capable of going on to holiday one after another, to tell the son to quit something he loved most, giving an absolutely unreasonable excuse.

the msg goes like this: ben go quit ur club. i dun have money for you to continue the dance. if u wan go take from your dad!

my question is: you dun have money to let me take my lessons, then you have money to go KOH SAMUI and XIAMEN. so wad are you trying to say? u are just concerned about yourself? ur own enjoyment?

it has always been the problem in this stupid family. u guys are concerned about yourself and being so self centered. always it is and it was just a wishful thinking that u guys have changed after last christmas incident.

mom has always known for my 3min temp in other stuffs. but this is my most wanted dance and i have gone all out to go for it. and i am just induldging in things that i want. neither did i cause harm to anyone, nor cause difficulties to any lives. and i dun understand which mother would ask her children to quit things that is not wrong and good for his future.

all parents i know are sending their children for all sorts of courses. ballet, piano, swimming, ice skating, acrobatics, gymnasium, painting, and many more. their parents are not very rich either. they just want their children to learn something and make them a better person. they went all out to find the best teacher, the best centre to nurture their child.

wad have my mom done in comparison???

she had never made me breakfast for me.
she had never priased me for doing good in sch.
she had never make my bed.
she had never been anxious about my studies.
she had never been uptight when i fall sick.
she had never fed me when i was ill.
she had never known wad i actually liked to drink or eat.
she had never known when i an happy and wad i am happy about.
she had never known how much she'd hurt me.

she always assume that i am a bad boy.
she always think i can be indepedent.
she always think that we are still in the stone age.
she always compare us with her younger days.
she always complain about the mess in the house when it was OUR house, not my house.
she always cook lousy food and say we waste food.
she always disturb my sleep.
she always plan things according to her timetable.
she always buy lotsa stuff home and let them rot at home.
she always not at home.
she always think that it's my fault.
she always my mom, whom i loved but does not love me.

i want to dance... but if i dance i will not be able to work and support myself.
and it's just so sickening to see mom and get mad always. i just wanna quickly get myself working so i dun have to argue with her over such matters, and if worse come to worse, shift out. and it's the most hurtful to see her being so unsupportive of her children.

and mom if u see this i wanna tell u i am very disappointed in you!!!