God is out to make fun of me....

been brooding thru the person i hated the most....




Although things have past for quite a long time... but i have yet to recover from the stabs that i had..

i realised that the love has far surpassed the hatred... but somehow or rather i just cannot make myself go up and embrace the loved one...

i met that bitch, yes that bitch, after clubbing on sat... Faisal, Haril and some frens were planning to chill out at tentric when faisal suggested to go clubbing... we went along to let loose and forget abt everything... but the least expected came true....

while we were on our way home at abt 3am, while i was walking on the road, i bypassed this van, i turn back as i feel that some1 is looking at me at the other side of the van, and it happened to be that bitch...

time paused.... for that split second, all sorts of feeling went thru me.... it's like mixing all the sauces in 1 and feeding it to me...

i feel like giving a slap or 2 to that bitch... but at the same time, i wished that i could go up and embrace that bitch, crying my hearts out....

unfortunate or lucky, i didn't....

giving a slap will only show how petty i am, wad a narrow minded person i was... hugging and crying will only show that i am weak and cannot do without that bitch...

i wish that i could say things like: i need not slap, cry nor hug..... coz that bitch dun deserve my tears... ;i feel disgusted to hug that bitch... later she spread wadeva diseases to me.... ;slapping will only dirty my own hands.... but i couldn't mouth it out...

love is not an easy game to play with... and i burnt my hands once again.... i dunno when i will pick myself up...

my whole holiday is crashed... for 1 person...

my frens all talked me in to forget and walk on... but easier said than done...

i mean i am not very bad in terms of character and personality... but why god wanna play a trick on me? giving me such a good looking but rotten apple...

this is a whole new season where ppl break off and get hurt... many of my frens broke of in this month... and it affected me very much....

some came up to me to suggest to go steady wid me but i rejected them all... over here i would like them to know that i am sorry, but just not ready to get hurt again.... my mind is brittle and weak...

gimme some time... sorry...

Finally everything has comed to an end...

Surveying has ended... Though we miss the times of going around bugis after that... yes We'd done it... no more standing till our legs give way....

Been very busy wid sch and dance that i dun have much time for recreation. Went for movie wid haril that dae... the fast and the furious tokyo drift... so damn cool la.... will try to go and watch it again...

todae went for a swim... and I GOT BURNT.... the sun was scorching when i was swimming... and the tann was so uneven.... will be going for studio tanning soon...

hmm while looking thru my phone, i realise i took some candid shots during the whole project of surveying....

take a look and have a good laugh....












BSU is coming to an end... Kinda sad... coz i miss the slacking times.... and the joking times.... though it's only a short 6 weeks... but the bond is there, esp between some of us... eating together, shopping together and covering for each other's mistakes.... just wanna tell u guys, u've been great and i will keep u in my heart.

have to buck up for classical modules.... coz i wan my GPA!!! my target is 3.6 and above.... so tat i can go to a UNIVERSITY in singapore... wasn't that hard working in sem2 last yr... so have to make up for it...

and u know what? i got "B+" for my previous stopover! was planning to get "C"for it... though i worked kinda hard.... but interpersonal skills wid the ppl wasn't good... as i expected, my peer evaluation was the factor that pulled me down... and i dun care liao... i'm contented with my B"....
chan say that i am very smart wor..... keep repeating the word "smart" to me.... haha think i real smart la... *BHB*... well he also said that if he was an employer he would employ me for sure.... he also said that my writing skills pro... scored me 80 and 85 for both reports.... WOW... hmm thank you my sec sch tchers.... u made me wad i am todae....

this stopover ar... think i didn't do much leh.... but supervisors had a good impression of me ba... so far no complains abt me..... and probably i know how to lick boots? i dunno but haha...

hope i do well.... finished typing my report.... i mean TEP report... and now have to plan my strategy for personal selling... i hate it... but no choice... must help the sch earn $$$... wad to do, who ask me to join NYP...

wad will classical be like? dunno... but i just wanna get a job... i wanna buy alot of things... wanna have a great celebration for my b dae.... btw... those who see this entry... pls prepare ur share of the present before 9 oct!!! coz i will be turning 18!!! the magic number!

the first thing i will do is to go get my driving licence. Then go clubbing officially!!! show them my IC with pride.... haha so lame rite.... but that's me!!!

dunno wad to get? ask me... and i'll give u the long list of wish list....

i am very very very very tired....

survey has started and the response is very bad. It's way below wad we had expected. We are suppose to do 35 per dae, but everydae you'll be glad that your daily respondents are more than 20.
stood for so long and my legs are giving way.... then sometimes still have to go for dance after tat..... oh my god!

talking abt dance... we're are getting ready for child aid charity show... but the deadline is like so near... 18th Aug must submit routine tape.. like we haven even choerograph la... then was racking my brains thinkin of steps......... stayed till midnight 3 plus.. then next dae still have to wake up @6. only had 3 hrs of sleep.
seriously i feel that we shouldn't have tried for the thing. firstly we dun have the full strength to perform. fio is busy wid performance, darren got bball, runie having prelims and i have my projects. OMG... then we still have to come up with steps. And i hate to do steps... i can dance but i dun like, dun wish to and cannot come up with steps.
What's more, that delphine is like pushing us to go for so many things. i appreciate the offer but it has to depend on the capability of our timing and deadlines. we are shorthanded and we also have other commitments. if you do not have such a big head, no point wearing such a big hat. u'll fall and die... i have no choice but to admit that my head is too small for that hat.

i am very tired.... very very tired.... so tired that i missed my alarm and got late for survey... was supposed to wake up at 6 to get ready but today woke up @ 1130... cannot even hear the funeral going on downstairs. totally switched off... think will suffer seizure if things gonna continue like this....

GIMME A BREAK!!!!

yoz know wad? todae's national dae!

haha was damn tired but cannot sleep la....

went clubbing yest and met 2 pretty lass... haha they're both cute and drunk and ya, as usual i offered to send them home as it was on the way... and they both gave me a goodbye kiss... haha... so sweet...

then reached home to watch tv... to make up for what i missed during the weekdaes...

come to think of it, i hate TEP.... it sux... we went to this hotel to do client project( customer satisfactory survey) and we were treated like dirt... the manager was so snobbish... as though the eye grown on the forehead. no wonder so many customers complaint hat the hotel is bad... stood for 5 hrs str8.... OMG... my legs breaking!

hope that this stupid TEP will be over soon....

hey hey! ppl i changed a new blogskin!!!

Give me ur comments abt the skin...

hmm well lately was quite slack in BSU.... nth much to do so started to do my cross stitch... hmm girly? i dun think so... it req alot of patience and technique... not many ppl, even the gers can do it!

haha also got some useless stuffs organised by J tan and "Mr bean"... stupid poster design that wasted my time....

Gonna start out our surveying next week.... kinda excited abt it... coz finally got things to do.... will be going to a hotel to do customer satisfaction survey... details are not to be mentioned as to protect confidentiality of client... if not i'll get SUED.... OK!!!

Haven been going for practice for like 2 weeks... kinda sad abt that... and today was having a bad migraine... dunno if tml can go anot... but well gave my promise and i shall drag myself there even if i'm sick....

my pocket abit empty lately... need to go find job liao... ppl if u got any good ones to intro, pls tell me!!! but i mean decent jobs... not those working in complex places... very troublesome rite? haha anyway, pls tell me if u got any....