Haven been posting here for quite some time... and ya these are the things that happened for the past days.

some 1, whom i had nv expected to call me, gave me a ring... and i was very very very disturbed by the call...

yes it's that fellow that has let me down time and again....

to those whom know who's "B"... yes it's that freakin bitch...

"sorry for all the pain i've caused u. hope we're still frens"...

WTF! you think wad u'd done can be striked off with "sorry" i just cannot accept the fact.... and mind u! u still have the cheek to msg me?

"wad have u been doing? made new frens?"...

i've been tramatised enough... gave serious consideration before stepping out to see the world.. .and nope i dun think i will make new frens, at least in the near future... (i am now a porcupine, guarding against every1 around me) and all thanks to u...

"will u still meet up with me in the future?

well i will if i need a sandbag... u know i will not pull my punches....

"i am sorry and i understand that i was very heartless to you at that time..."

i am glad that u know that u are heartless... at least u are not that thick skinned.... and once again apology doesn't mean that u will be forgiven..

"having a bad time at work... **save the details** waiting for bonus b4 leaving to look for new job"

well does that concern me? it will only if u give me ur bonus as a compensation....

"keep in contact ok? "

NO! i dun wanna get involved in matters of the heart, especially with u again!



well all the above is just words of anger.... in actual fact... i know that i am a stupid fool trying to get myself hurt again...

feelings are hard to get by... and yes i still can't get over with "B"... the times are so close... and so sweet that it gives me good dreams everytime i recalls... but as i've said it's all dreams....

if given a chance to turn back time, i will still choose to be with "B"...

And if "B" was to request a patch... i might really get back with bitch if my frens do not stop me... so pls frens... for my sake, if i mention to patch back with "B", knock me against the wall or something and tell me to go and die.... i seriously dunno wad i am doing, coz love really made me blind...

my whole life is ruined...... by the person i loved the most...