Haven been posting here for quite some time... and ya these are the things that happened for the past days.

some 1, whom i had nv expected to call me, gave me a ring... and i was very very very disturbed by the call...

yes it's that fellow that has let me down time and again....

to those whom know who's "B"... yes it's that freakin bitch...

"sorry for all the pain i've caused u. hope we're still frens"...

WTF! you think wad u'd done can be striked off with "sorry" i just cannot accept the fact.... and mind u! u still have the cheek to msg me?

"wad have u been doing? made new frens?"...

i've been tramatised enough... gave serious consideration before stepping out to see the world.. .and nope i dun think i will make new frens, at least in the near future... (i am now a porcupine, guarding against every1 around me) and all thanks to u...

"will u still meet up with me in the future?

well i will if i need a sandbag... u know i will not pull my punches....

"i am sorry and i understand that i was very heartless to you at that time..."

i am glad that u know that u are heartless... at least u are not that thick skinned.... and once again apology doesn't mean that u will be forgiven..

"having a bad time at work... **save the details** waiting for bonus b4 leaving to look for new job"

well does that concern me? it will only if u give me ur bonus as a compensation....

"keep in contact ok? "

NO! i dun wanna get involved in matters of the heart, especially with u again!



well all the above is just words of anger.... in actual fact... i know that i am a stupid fool trying to get myself hurt again...

feelings are hard to get by... and yes i still can't get over with "B"... the times are so close... and so sweet that it gives me good dreams everytime i recalls... but as i've said it's all dreams....

if given a chance to turn back time, i will still choose to be with "B"...

And if "B" was to request a patch... i might really get back with bitch if my frens do not stop me... so pls frens... for my sake, if i mention to patch back with "B", knock me against the wall or something and tell me to go and die.... i seriously dunno wad i am doing, coz love really made me blind...

my whole life is ruined...... by the person i loved the most...

Well was rather annoyed with this incident that happened todae...

well somebody made a tie using barcodes( which is a sch property) to decorate the model in IM and was reprimanded by Baboon/hippo. b/h said that we cannot waste sch properties and the barcodes cost $0.30 each. That stupid somebody still dare to argue back and say that he'll pay for it. B/H then explained that it's not about paying. And ya... i shall save the details...

Then he kept quiet... and every1 knows that he's angry with things. (as usual). Then later he bluttered out this words that really made me saw red. "BUT THERE ARE ALSO PPL WHO USE THE SCHOOL'S PROPERTY TO DO THEIR OWN THINGS. LIKE WE ALSO USE THE SCH PAPER AND COMPUTER TO PRINT OUR PERSONAL SELLING REPORT AND OTHER STUFFS."

WTF! i know u are angry and wanna get ur justice done... BUT PLEASE USE UR ASS TO THINK IF U DO NOT HAVE A BRAIN! u should have known that it's not rightful for us to use sch things to do personal stuffs and u still spill everyone out? are u NUTS? Or u wan everyone to get into trouble just like u? DUH!

Then later we go around tidying up the room, clearing the mess... Then LH packed some mag to be thrown away as they were outdated and no 1 was reading them. Ok la... though she told me to throw outside lest that some1 sees it and flare. but i felt that no point wad. if he found out after looking for his BELOVED mag, wouldn't it be worse?

True indeed, he flared. "how come u all throw my things without asking me? "

"well i didn't know that it's urs, and besides, it's outdated and nobody reads them"

"well u all should have at least asked me"

"well if u wan to keep the mag, u should have brought it home and seal it up in a frame. "

"I brought it here to share it with u guys."

"well as u can see, we're getting busy with things and seldom have time to read them. And why not u ask if we had finish reading and bring them home? u didn't right? so why blame others?"

The whole issue is: WE'RE NOT UR SANDBAGS so pls do not vent ur anger on us. BE A MAN (though i know u are gay). and pls look at urself in the mirror... does any gers behave that sensitive like u? u are just being overdoing urself... making urself look pitiful. and so wad's so big abt depression? trying to make a big hoo haa out of nothing? I think that u might as well go for sex change op and forget abt being a guy... u are disgracing the male population. AND THE GAY COMMUNITY AS WELL... not happy? go and die la! Staying on earth is just wasting the resources and being an eyesore to the society.

Yea saw my revo blog le... looks kewl!!!.. ppl free must go see ok!

things was as usual todae (boring)... nv expected sch to be that boring.... kinda hated sch...

but both IM and OPS was quite "high" todae... singing and playing a fool the whole dae. haha fun...

world cup is coming to an end and yea... kinda won some bucks... not much la.. still quite ok lor...

And i am going to use the money i won to get myself an MP3... yea... always wanted to get 1 but was budget.... haha ya .. i dun save... that's the prob... any suggestions on which MP3 to get? pm me or tag on the board....

and yea.. i got a new hairdo and it really spoils my dae... now i understand why ppl are having extreme moods after hairdos... it really sucks... gonna dye it black and re-do.... dun care if my hair get split ends... I JUST WANNA GOOD HAIRDO...

wad is the next stopover like??? well just prepare for the worst and hope for the best...

Quote: You must be the change you wish to see in the world. (Mahatma Gandhi)

was smashed by cake when it's not my b dae...

was rather busy in IM during the dae... and went up to cheers to help out coz we're too free... yea...

Busy doing forwarding and stuffs that keeps me busy...

lunch was fantastic... was damn full while we discuss abt the steamboat and bitch abt some ppl...

after lunch was a hard time in sweet n such... the barcode tagging are makin me nuts... and yea.. managed to finish it by 4.40.

went down to IM and discovered that they got a cake for Kia.. and as usual, we sang the b dae song and cut the cake... took up half and played a prank on kia... got it videoed... funni sia... then ppl started playing cream... and yea... i "siam" till far far... .. until this time when hua applied cream on my face... i grabbed a piece of cake and fed her. unfortunately, i aimed wrongly and fed her face instead... muahaha...

things got ugly, we smeared cream like facial mask... and haha... it looks kinda kewl...

played till she drop on the floor and stone there... kia grabbed me from behind and ZHI YI smasehd the other cake that was meant to be eaten, onto my hair and face... shit man... worse cake smash sia... for the whole 17 yrs of b dae i nv get to dirty la... the cream still reeks deep into my skin la.... washed 4 times le... arg...

got home quickly.... took several baths...

and on my com... got a bad news... grassroot called and told sueann that we are not required for performance anymore... Coz they got not enough time... and yea... disappointed...

well nvm we can still use the routine for the private party in july... haha better money somemore... best if fio and sue ann can strip.. well just joking... we dance for art, not for those dirty money... right? sound as though we damn holy la... haha

well tired... wanna sleep... tml gotta write reports.... *yawns*

was rather disappointed abt things....

for the whole of the week... i slept for an average of 3.5++ hours per dae... and i still woke up early to get ready for dance...

yesterdae had a bad day puking wadeva i had... and was feverish....... todae purposely skipped breakfast...

rushed off for dance... and every1 was joking all the way... i mean i dun mind jokes, but when it's time to get serious, pls do... took some time to get the right mood..

and btw only sueann greeted me todae... so sad... yes i'm leaving but i am still here... i give respect and commitment... and it went down the drain...

ppl sat in their own groups leaving me at the corner... ignoring me... sad...

time to learn new steps... ppl were harsh... well maybe i too sensitive... and seems rather unwilling to teach... wadeva...

cracked jokes among themselves... i repeat, themselves...

then this whole big fucking gp of cell gp members came and create chaos... i shoouted at them and walked off... coz i am damn tired and sick...

in all... i wasn't welcome at all... the old warm and cosy R3VO-TA was gone... i could no longer say that i feel at home when wid em.. actually intended to reconsider whether i should stay... coz i really wanted to do it together... but today's practice is a huge disappointment...

i have decided... and the decision made my heart bleed....