D@NC3 M@N|A
today is very purplexed...
Woke up @ 10pm... then went to get shower and changed before i cook bfast... (sounds routinal rite?)
Hmm was re-tying my shoelace for my ADIDAS ( all dae i dream abt sez) shoes. Then realise that i'm late!!! Grabbed my bag and locked my doors...
Kept praying that time will stop for me... msg sue ann that i will be late... prayed hard that i will not be reprimanded... luckily she good mood....
how i wish that i have my wings... but just too bad.. ran for my life.... the moment i reached my destination, i was like - i see the finishing line lor... it's pratically the "finishing" line.... i'm finished...
bad news: i'm late...
good news: i'm not the latest...
only sue ann, brian (dunno who's that) was there... was like *phew... kinda angry la... rush like MRT (mad rushing train) then still have to wait....
go do my warm up... (which i kinda have already done with all those running).. then fiona came shortly after...
cut all the crap... we did chat on lotsa stuffs b4 the *** te de*** "Superstar came (well actually not superstar la.. we just wan his speakers)
still dare to crap the hell out of nowhere when he's late..... trying to find excuse and said lotsa things b4 he sashayed to do his warm up... *pissed*
started to do things as though he has no bones... (i mean not at the right time to display that trait)
things start to get better after some scolding and joking.... hmm maybe that's our style...
interesting part of all: the freestyle dancing we all had... was kinda funni... fiona showed improvement.. but this time round.... sue ann and runie was totally out of place... they were so intimidated by brian.... and he's hell of an ass... dun feel that i will like him in the group... he's actually a nice person but with some kinda AP...
oh ya forgot to mention this fellow... ashley.. he's a very nice person, at least better than b****... very polite helpful... and think he initiated to learn our steps.... maybe he's keen? well i leave it to sue ann...
finished practice @ 5.32...
hop onto the train and slept thru the whole journey... maybe i'm too tired. dreamed of CN.... well kinda good dream...
(well hope she doesn't see this... )
this is how it goes: was in sch doing my daily routine... then went to cheers to get a drink and saw her... chatted and she says she sick... then ask her to drink more water etc.... then later on my way home see her not feeling well... then held her hands to the mrt.... ask a gentleman to give the seat to her... haha... very bad rite??? but for CN i will do it la... then bring her down the mrt b4 i left... she called me later to say thanks and hmm got mushy contents wor... then the mrt jerked... that spoils my dream... well at least it's better than nth....
so wad's actually between me and her?
to be truthful... i also dunno...
maybe i'm overly sensitive or i wasn't doing it right?
sometimes she will start to initiate msg-es to me... then hmm quite concern me lah... to me a nml fren will not do this lor.... i mean the content she sent rather odd la... not mushy but abit too concern le ba?
then sometimes will look for her for lunch.. then hmm sometimes the way she talk like very odd to me leh... last time we talk not like tat 1 leh... prefer the way she talk to me in the past... to reduce my hallucinations...
ar ya things are difficult to explain when u guys who are reading this is not in my shoes... it's just so odd lor...
well pls tell me that i'm just imaginating things...
she did tell me not to stress her, when i msged her abt how i felt abt her on 06/06/06, after my uncle's wedding, when i was drunk... this is how the msg goes... (exact words used) *xx dont stress me laaa. xx boo... go rest! rest well!*
hmm this reply seems to be different from the last reply i got when in yr 1 sem 1... (maybe i'm reading too much into it? ) she rejected me str8.. .well think the whole class knows abt it lor... when chang and ron keeps disturbing me and her till we both very irritated....
how i feel abt her... 100% truth.... i did like her quite abit... the feeling rather comfortable... not as like those big hoo haa love, but those small waves in ur hearts and mind... think this is the correct feeling ba.. if not i'll die of heart attack one dae... she's like those good gers that i'm not afraid to bring her out n sae she's mine...
just dun wanna get stress up by this matter la... let us go wid e flow lor..
she's like so pissed that time when my IM ppl sayed something abt her and me some time ago.. it's like we were passing the books to some juniors @ LTD4. then walked pass em... then my legs long ma so i walk faster while she's behind... then they said: dont need to walk so far apart de la... *in a sarcastic way* then it's like so irritated la.. then at LTD4 then lee added on... "so how's ur larling getting?" that's it man... she was like fuming mad lor...
some weeks after then i heard from jeannette.. that she feels very pissed wid it...
purposely not meet her for lunch for the rest of the weeks... dun wanna get things worse...
well all i hope is : ppl pls dun fan the wind and light the fire (shan feng dian huo).... if we're meant to be, we will eventually, but if we aren't, then i hope that frens still exist b/w us... dun wanna get things out of hand till we're too embarrassed to even say "hi" when we see each other..
Tuesday, June 13, 2006 ; 9:45:00 pm