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was very disheartened by stuffs that happen todae....
been very quiet for the whole of todae.... so quiet that i myself become strangers when i look into the mirror... the sulken and haggard face is not the usual bright and lively benji i had ever knew.. in fact the old benji has left since the younger daes... forgotten when i really laughed from deep down my heart...
Dunno wad happened... i had lunch alone todae... maybe i need some time to cool down...
been enduring the torture from my sch... the stress is pushing me to a corner... the dark circles is making me look like the protected animal from the zoo...
taking down all the cold words and cold shoulders given by every1... i dun wish to retaliate, ad i have no more energy to do so... i am tired... really tired....
my b dae is coming in a few mths time... and i will be stepping into a whole new era of my own.... wanna enclose myself in my own world and live in darkness....
sng threaten me to leave revotia if i left... cannot be bothered much.. coz i am too tired... just told him to go talk to sue ann... wadeva... i need a break... i have not been having my leisure activities for a long long long time... i forgotten when was the last time i watched a movie, when was the last time i went to the beach, when was the last time i went swim, when was the last time i went clubbing... tired... it's like rubber band being stretched to the max.... anytime i will snap...
i wanna rest... really wanna rest... please dun make me stay... coz it's for my good....
Thursday, June 29, 2006 ; 9:54:00 pm