age has caught up wid me...

my eyes getting darker n darker dae by dae... seems that sleeping has becomed a luzury for myself...

todae sch has been fucking busy.... counting money is the dreadest thing i had done... i hated money at that instance...

nth much happened todae... jas n juan asked me out for shopping... feeling that i need to relax and induldge myself in some shopping spree... but later in the eveing, alex reminded me of my appointment wid him... sad... seems that i had to give the shopping trip a go... see how things goes ba...

got home @ 8. my bones seems to split into parts... I AM VERY VERY TIRED... seriously, physically, mentally and spiritually...

finally completed my reports... and got on to msn... sms-ed that sue ann for upteem times asking abt training time... no reply... forget it.. i am not going to waste another 5 cents on useless thigns... i ahve better uses for that... and while i was giving up, thinking of not going to practice, sng replied my msg... and kind aapologised for the late reply... well... haiz...

i seem to get sick of R3VO-TA... as in like, everything is giving me stress... in the past, my sch work pulls me out of my swimming habit, pro team adds on to my commitment, and dance taken up my last hour of leisure time... one dae i will look like mountain tortoise... i miss my bed, my TV, my heeren, my cineleisure, my far east, my bugis, my cinema, my kinokunniya, my starbucks, my clubbing, my frens...

sng, has added on to my troubles... sleepless nights are routinal... till todae... the more i wanna forget it, the more it hinders me... i wanna get a rest, but whenever i get to, i get stucked with sng... haiz... wadeva...

sianz... dun wanna talk abt it le...

was very disheartened by stuffs that happen todae....

been very quiet for the whole of todae.... so quiet that i myself become strangers when i look into the mirror... the sulken and haggard face is not the usual bright and lively benji i had ever knew.. in fact the old benji has left since the younger daes... forgotten when i really laughed from deep down my heart...

Dunno wad happened... i had lunch alone todae... maybe i need some time to cool down...

been enduring the torture from my sch... the stress is pushing me to a corner... the dark circles is making me look like the protected animal from the zoo...

taking down all the cold words and cold shoulders given by every1... i dun wish to retaliate, ad i have no more energy to do so... i am tired... really tired....

my b dae is coming in a few mths time... and i will be stepping into a whole new era of my own.... wanna enclose myself in my own world and live in darkness....

sng threaten me to leave revotia if i left... cannot be bothered much.. coz i am too tired... just told him to go talk to sue ann... wadeva... i need a break... i have not been having my leisure activities for a long long long time... i forgotten when was the last time i watched a movie, when was the last time i went to the beach, when was the last time i went swim, when was the last time i went clubbing... tired... it's like rubber band being stretched to the max.... anytime i will snap...

i wanna rest... really wanna rest... please dun make me stay... coz it's for my good....

Has been rather emotional todae....

first thing in the morning i got scolded... for something tht i am not blamed for....
LIM told me to print on-hand stock listing early in the morning. as i wasn't on first shift i told those on first shift to print. then when i reached office, she blurted out like mad dog.... accusing me that i did not inform... WTF... i told liao lor.. i remember clearly... then those from 1st shift told me, the first moment they reached office LIM came and scolded em for not printing it... pls la.. u start car also need to warm engine right???

then nvm... time to do finance.. then do until half i went to print daily sales summary.... then realise still got RS1 in the summary.. then strange wor... went to ask LIM. then she come saying, "u all nv take meh?" F**K la... then everything have to re-write and calculate... she hor... dunno how to become supervisor de lor....

Then forget it... went for lunch.. then that eric dunno do wad.. joined us to WALK to FJ only la.. then dunno went off to work... then juan and jas was discussing abt taking flexi together... asked LIM then she said: how can both take together? later shorthanded... WTF... ppl blk leave also like tat wad. to think tat time Pretty face also nobody somemore lor.. 2 blk leave then the other 2 MC... nobody lor... Fuck la....

Then went back... then the monster told us got sharing abt visual display.... WTF... how come always give last min notice de??? Sickening dae..... went for briefing as told... then came back the LIM kao beh again... say how come so long nv submit finance... as if i can split myself....

went in to take finance doc and $$... then the new "gay" supervisor, lim, called... said he was waiting for the whole afternoon to count the $$$. WTF la.. we started doing at 1030 and have so many FUCK to do... i had enough lor... went up then he ask this ask that... pls la... if i know everything, would u still be asked to be my supervisor????

Then told us to go down and ask LIM... F**K.. then went down, LIM reprimanded for making her wait so long... Told her that lim wanted to count the money... then u also wanna do finance... u think wad ar? i puppet toy isit??? then say: u all should have told me that u all going to let him do finance wad... i scolded her lor... i told her: u 2 should have decided who should be the finance in charge for 2dae... not let us run up and down... so fed up lor...

My whole dae in IM was damn fucked up la... working nonstop no time to even take a proper break.... SHIT THE WHOLE FUCKING TEP.....



went home after closing... and the whole mrt is packed like sardines lor.... reached home... and dinner is still not ready...... MOM wasn't even at home... should have called and told me that she is not home yet and ask me to buy dinner rite??? DUH... then the sue ann told me to change practice to Mondae... coz mon is youth dae... told her that i am no longer youthful and poly has no hoildae on tat dae.. .and u know wad she said??? oh i forgotten ur antique... WTF??? i got pissed and told her that wadeva, ya i am antique....

on the TV and it showed channel 8 stupid show.... everytime also cry... and cry until so fake....
Got really pissed and hot for the dae... decided to go online.. and some stupid idiot flooded my mail... shit the fellow la... DUH...

things got better @ 8. watch SCV and they got the final episode of this show... i was damn touched by the scenes and ya, i cried... the whole episode, none of the acting cast cried.. but the scene just touched our hearts... this is called pro acting... mediacorp, pls improve la!!! we pay subscription charges every year not to see u waste film 1 ok!!!

the episode kinda reflect myself when i was young... was very rebellious and always disobeys instructions... and joining the corps changed me dramatically... i learnt wad is discipline, teamwork and love between each other... sometimes things are not to be mentioned in words... but felt by the heart... and always sae wad u feel before u lose the chance...

i totally wanna forget sng todae... was busy but the thought still remains like a birthmark... arg.... i had always been weak in handling relationships.. CN came todae and i totally ignored her as well... shunning away is my forte ba... dunno wad am i going to do at dance this sat... dun really wanna turn up... coz arg.... i dunno why the impulse.... and i dun see anything great in sng except cute and dance well...

my choice to revoke from R3VO-TA is decided upon... i am not going to change my mind... coz i dun wanna put myself in a difficult position... i loved dancing, and that is the only reason keeping me behind... can't bear it, but still i will leave.. for wadeva sake it is... sorry but goodbye...

gonna find a job for myself... or my bank will always show 1 digit amounts...

quote: There is nothing more truly artistic than to love people. (Vincent Van Gogh)

was feeling damn down todae la...

though slept at 8.30 yesterdae... but was still feeling as tired as before... having a very bad headache wid some kinda fever....

all the way in IM was GOD DAMN F**KING busy... supplier came large amt of goods and we're like in a big mess... sorted out eventually... phew.. but the store is still ver crammed... shit la...

drowsy still coz of the medicine... pui... my taste bud is not working at all lor...

went for lunch wid juan, jas n (mohammad) zhi yi... haha no la... just that he's dark doesn't mean he's a malay... then juan's fren came to join us... then he damn sian lor... wasn't close wid him at first la... dunno who the hack is he in the first place... then after awhile in fusion then like keep suan-ing juan like nobody's business lor... so shoik sia... then let every1 tried my massage skills... haha long time nv massage le... last time in Reds was like washing hair till my hands rot... oh damn sick sia... dun wanna think abt it again...

haha then went down again to get job done... then time flew past... closing.. then went waiting for mom to pick me home... sianz sia... if i had taken MRT i would have reached ages ago... i regretted my decision.... haiz...


hmm got home bathe and ate dinner... went online and sng PM me... said a lot of things... but all abt R3Vo-TA... hmm well told sng off that i am not feeling well and i wanna rest... hmm then feel a sense of guilt... it's like i purposely flare to get away from sng... but sng was nice... told me to rest well.. and even advice me not to on air con to sleep... i was damn ***arg*** and i said: can u not be so nice to me? i dun wanna get anything more than frens... haha childish right? i also think so...

well wad is said cannot be taken back... well... maybe i should quit R3Vo-TA.. just to have a break from sng... hmm maybe i should, after the performance...

We came so far together, and asking me to part from the team is kinda sad... but i just wanna focus on my studies and dun wish to get distracted... distant myself from temptations might be a good alternative... cooling down alone is good... at least for me... dun wanna feel awkward during practice and under-perform as well... haiz... can some1 like advice me?

quote: Love is an irresistible desire to be irresistibly desired. (Robert Frost)

well haven been posting for quite a few daes... been busy wid stuffs in the dance gp...

have been planning for the costumes.. and it's giving me headaches... still having my fever.... since saturdae...

R3Vo-TA is getting on track... members are quite united i can say... oh ya... we recruited sng... and it's like so happy la... Coz it's me who discover sng!

sng is very cute... and i kinda had a crush. the smiles damn cute la... hmm sng's kinda attached with this guy la... then have been chatting on the fone very sweetly... hmm so sad... haha.. well maybe not meant to be mine in the first place... so can only carry torch for ...er hm... well where am i thinking... just been reminded by sue ann that no BGR in R3V0-TA... though it'd be nice if i can hold sng's hand to dance... haha...

well back to business... kayly promised to design a pair of shoes for my performance... haha longing for it since donkey yrs ago lor... muahaha... i can finally have mine...

Chang also told me abt the NTUC scholarship application wor.. think our klass only got a few who was offered that la.. so honored... but dunno if my application will be accepted... if can then mom's load will be lighter...

hmm well feeling damn sick todae... have been wondering wad sng is doing in sch.. well first time i fancy some1 so young... haha but disappointed that with the news of attachment..

haiz... well told myself to focus on studies and not think of BGR... and now i'm getting into this big shit again... DUH...

haha kinda excited abt todae's match..... now my mind is filled with world cup...

was bored to death at IM todae..... not busy at all... teh whole dae was practically looking at the odds of the WC... had a hard time placing bets... quite hard to decide coz these matches are hard to guess the winnings... pary hard that i will win...

oh ya yesterdae's betting won me $19.25... though abit small la... but afterall it's still a bonus for me... yea... switzerland and spain didn't fail me... todae betting more le.. coz got capital...

haha todae betting on lotsa stuffs.... first i bet on Gp D winner = portugal, Gp A winner = Germany, sweden VS england = eng wins by 2 goals. portugal n mexico = hard to guess... coz mexico also quite good... so i buy D-H, H-H and A-H... anyways even if the lowest odds come out. i still got $$$ to get... lastly i got ivory coast VS serb and montenegro...

pray hard i win wor.... bet my whole week's allowance.. if lose then i everydae eat air liaoz....

haha... well come back to IM... todae think monster went up to my blog and knew tat i'm calling her monster.... well it's just a nick la... i also give alot of ppl very bad nicks wad... dunno wad to give her so call her monster lor.... haha.... *very bad right... that's me!!! *

Oh ya... Mr Chan was giving Appraiser todae as well.... give me rather good comments wor... btu still can be improved de la... think his description of our performance rather interesting... he uses the driving gear as a analogy.... say u are @ which gear n u ahve room for improvement... haha cute right???

oh talking abt gear.... LiHua cannot pronounce it prpperly.... think she pronounce it as Gale... then jack go make fun of her.... eileen also wor... haha well every ppl will have their own mis pornounciation... like me... i cannot pronounce salmon correctly... haha...

well nth much le ba.... that's another boring but exciting dae.... hope all my predictions will come true and bring more income to my pockets.... *winks* ............

todae was the first dae of the week, also the first dae i return to sch after my block leave.... BORING dae....

overslept todae... and mom fetched me to sch as it was on the way... and sad to say... i got later... the expressway was jammed....

monster todae was on MC... so happy...

oh btw just got to know a secret.... u know Mr. hawaii from fusion... he actually liked monster!!! OMG!! so bad taste wor... i tot that he could have better taste... haiz... dunno wad he sees in her...

whole dae was slacking in IM... then went to cheers to get bfast... got the sunshine pizza... quite nice... just that the crust too hard...

then was discussing abt bets of the world cup... hmm todae's match was Togo vs switzerland, saudi vs ukraine, and spain vs tunatia.... hmm hard to bet worz... the odds so low... then the past few match was so unpredictable.... sianz sia... so only bet 1/2 goal for switzerland and 1/2 goal for spain... pray hard i win... if not no $$$ liao...

was looking at the singapore pools website all this while to see which match should we bet... but no $$$ le... maybe tml win $$ le then buy more...

haha seems like IM getting more and more like gambling den.... all bcoz of world cup... well just a reminder... it's ok to gamble once in awhile in small amt, but dun put in too much... or u'll ruin urself...

too tired to follow the match... sleepy le... so tml just wait for results lor... haha lazy right? tt's just me and me just right... no extra preservatives or flavouring... *wink*

well... hmm was quite busy wid stuffs these couple of daes... and wasn't in a good mood to write stuffs...

hmm regarding to my posts on june 13, regarding CN... unfortunately she saw it.... if u notice the tagboard...she did post something on it... go see ba..

well actually my intention was to clarify things to make life easier, to be frens if it didn't work out... and since she gave this kinda reply( which defeats the purpose of me writing the blog entry) so be it ba... ...

yesterdae went to DSC clinic to get myself tested for HIV... coz my b dae coming... wanna~~ hmm how should i put it... to and to my parents and myself that i'm safe...

then after check up went to genki sushi wid sue ann, runie and fiona... and it was fun... first crew outing worz.... great experience....

went for dance practice at esplanade... then ashley was there... oh ya hor... ashley was wondering if he was in our crew... didn't we discuss whether we wan him in or not? he's rather negative abt himself, saying htat he's not good enough... maybe we should give him some morale support? that's what fren are for isn't it? afterall he's quite all rite wad...

then after practice went home wid ashley followed... coz he got nowhere to go... he's gotta go his father stall help out in lat3 night at yishun... dun wan him to stay out and led astray... wad a kind me..... (bhb)

watch dance clips from youtube... and some breakdancing.. kinda kewl... and some idiotic clips.. funni wor...

todae was normal lor... woke up late... then michael come to eat lunch that i cooked... then watch tv while we play mahjong wid my neighbours lor...

then went to dance class and i happen to meet xue qi's mom... chatted abt her life and was rather symphatethic... haiz... as i mentioned... life is nv a bed of roses... just do ur best ba...

came back and then michael complain bad tummy...say my fault... but cannot be wad... if my food wrong then i will also get it wad... hmm got worried abt him lor... promised that if he still didn't recover by tml, go see doc and i'll pay... kind rite??? haha

well... dun think i wanna get ivolved in LTR le... still got another 1.5 yr b4 i go NS... and it's hard to maintain it... so think i will focus on studies... and get my distinctions... (hopefully la)...

ok la... my block leave over le... tml gotta go back sch and see hippo, monster and that u know who.... pray hard that the remaining 5 weeks is easy to pass..... bleah.....

well yesterdae did not write anything up here... coz was very busy and vexed abt certain things...

received a very shocking msg when i got home... and that ruins my everything... do not wish to elaborate it here... and pray hard that everythign goes well... amen...

todae purposely stuff myself wid loads of things... went jogging early morning... then went to the back to get my new atm card( lost my wallet recently). then they intro me wadeva debit card... so took 1 lor... anyway free wad... (typical singaporean doings)

then went to eat wid grandma... well might not have the chance again ba...

went to sch to meet CN and that jeannette... reached, but they finished lunch le... then too bad lor.. went around shopping arcade visiting b4 i go back to IM... then sat for awhile then got busy... then sad to say, kia was found out using MSN in the room and that baboon cum hippo say wanna issue warning letter. sad sia... but i seriously think that it's overdoing lor... no point make ppl dae so bad right... but wad to do? she use her hips to think wad... (think u guys get wad i mean. )

then was informed abt graduation... then dunno if pro team was involved.. hmm so gave relevant ppl a msg to see if they know everything.. then the tcher i/c gave me a scolding.... wad the fark* she says: you should have asked ur president, jacinta... you shouldn't have come directly to me, if not why would we want a president for? you are a professional and need to think n act like 1.

well there are a few issues being addressed.

1. i know nuts abt the president. i also dun ahve her contact! how to ask?
2. it's a mass sent msg to the group. so how would i ahve noticed she's in the sent list? i dun give it a fuck...
3. it's always safer to ask her directly... and much faster...
4. pro team always give last min notices, HOW PROFESSIONAL!
5. communication in Pro team alwys have different msges passed around... who knows which is the real?
6. since the president has been elected... how come there is no contact or agenda or at least a list of contact for the excos? how are we gonna communicate if we dun ahve? i know some have their contacts, but dun ake things for granted that every1 has! Pro team should show some professionalism..
7. i was just asking out of kindness and responsibility ( or i should say commitment, which they always mention). must u be that pissed abt that? i am pissed bat the operational attitude of pro team wad...

well think that's it b/w me and pro team... i am not going to participate for any pro team events... shit them with all the commitment and value-added learning.... i dun give it a damn anymore! to think that we always do our best for pro team in all the events, unlike the others who dun bother abt the team at all. and yet they give us this kinda treatment.... we show concern abt the graduation, being scared that we are to be utilised but not informed, and they scold u like fuck... this actually shows how professional they are... it's just all but scam.... everytime give last min motice and treat us like odd job labourers. rehearsal make us do rubbish work... wait whole dae n do nth... waste time lor... u guys have loads of time to waste but i am not going go for it again!!!

to my fellow pro team mates... think abt it man... how many a time are we treated like patriots of a war? we're just like slaves at their beck n call... sometimes even come back on weekends to help em.. then all they say is well done and this is wad u should have done.. everytime ask we all do sai gang... always psycho us, say u have given ur words to be committed.. then who's the ones that are not committed? and what happens to them? them we those who are contributing get shit...

todae went to a few places to send the strudels... shag sia... went to clementi, bedok, pasir ris, west coast, raffles place, somerset, woodlands, chua chu kang..... dots... like 1 dae singapore tour la... then went to CWP to send trudels for yao de... coz he help me collect pie tml to give cai (aka sammi cheng and cyndi wang)...

then went to the w collection to play mind games... wa play until my eyes tired... also went to arcade to play games... play until my blister came up and whole body aching...

went home at abt 8 plus then the strudel almost went bad... tried.. but not nice... CN also say maybe lao hong... then like waste $$$ lor... well ar ya maybe it'll be the last...

todae went to return lu's mom money as well... dun wanna owe her la... later owe till the dae i die...

just so pissed wid things todae lor.... everything seems to go wrong... esp pro team... so much for my efforts... shit u....

today is very purplexed...

Woke up @ 10pm... then went to get shower and changed before i cook bfast... (sounds routinal rite?)

Hmm was re-tying my shoelace for my ADIDAS ( all dae i dream abt sez) shoes. Then realise that i'm late!!! Grabbed my bag and locked my doors...

Kept praying that time will stop for me... msg sue ann that i will be late... prayed hard that i will not be reprimanded... luckily she good mood....

how i wish that i have my wings... but just too bad.. ran for my life.... the moment i reached my destination, i was like - i see the finishing line lor... it's pratically the "finishing" line.... i'm finished...

bad news: i'm late...
good news: i'm not the latest...

only sue ann, brian (dunno who's that) was there... was like *phew... kinda angry la... rush like MRT (mad rushing train) then still have to wait....

go do my warm up... (which i kinda have already done with all those running).. then fiona came shortly after...

cut all the crap... we did chat on lotsa stuffs b4 the *** te de*** "Superstar came (well actually not superstar la.. we just wan his speakers)

still dare to crap the hell out of nowhere when he's late..... trying to find excuse and said lotsa things b4 he sashayed to do his warm up... *pissed*
started to do things as though he has no bones... (i mean not at the right time to display that trait)

things start to get better after some scolding and joking.... hmm maybe that's our style...

interesting part of all: the freestyle dancing we all had... was kinda funni... fiona showed improvement.. but this time round.... sue ann and runie was totally out of place... they were so intimidated by brian.... and he's hell of an ass... dun feel that i will like him in the group... he's actually a nice person but with some kinda AP...

oh ya forgot to mention this fellow... ashley.. he's a very nice person, at least better than b****... very polite helpful... and think he initiated to learn our steps.... maybe he's keen? well i leave it to sue ann...

finished practice @ 5.32...

hop onto the train and slept thru the whole journey... maybe i'm too tired. dreamed of CN.... well kinda good dream...

(well hope she doesn't see this... )
this is how it goes: was in sch doing my daily routine... then went to cheers to get a drink and saw her... chatted and she says she sick... then ask her to drink more water etc.... then later on my way home see her not feeling well... then held her hands to the mrt.... ask a gentleman to give the seat to her... haha... very bad rite??? but for CN i will do it la... then bring her down the mrt b4 i left... she called me later to say thanks and hmm got mushy contents wor... then the mrt jerked... that spoils my dream... well at least it's better than nth....

so wad's actually between me and her?
to be truthful... i also dunno...
maybe i'm overly sensitive or i wasn't doing it right?

sometimes she will start to initiate msg-es to me... then hmm quite concern me lah... to me a nml fren will not do this lor.... i mean the content she sent rather odd la... not mushy but abit too concern le ba?

then sometimes will look for her for lunch.. then hmm sometimes the way she talk like very odd to me leh... last time we talk not like tat 1 leh... prefer the way she talk to me in the past... to reduce my hallucinations...

ar ya things are difficult to explain when u guys who are reading this is not in my shoes... it's just so odd lor...

well pls tell me that i'm just imaginating things...

she did tell me not to stress her, when i msged her abt how i felt abt her on 06/06/06, after my uncle's wedding, when i was drunk... this is how the msg goes... (exact words used) *xx dont stress me laaa. xx boo... go rest! rest well!*

hmm this reply seems to be different from the last reply i got when in yr 1 sem 1... (maybe i'm reading too much into it? ) she rejected me str8.. .well think the whole class knows abt it lor... when chang and ron keeps disturbing me and her till we both very irritated....

how i feel abt her... 100% truth.... i did like her quite abit... the feeling rather comfortable... not as like those big hoo haa love, but those small waves in ur hearts and mind... think this is the correct feeling ba.. if not i'll die of heart attack one dae... she's like those good gers that i'm not afraid to bring her out n sae she's mine...

just dun wanna get stress up by this matter la... let us go wid e flow lor..

she's like so pissed that time when my IM ppl sayed something abt her and me some time ago.. it's like we were passing the books to some juniors @ LTD4. then walked pass em... then my legs long ma so i walk faster while she's behind... then they said: dont need to walk so far apart de la... *in a sarcastic way* then it's like so irritated la.. then at LTD4 then lee added on... "so how's ur larling getting?" that's it man... she was like fuming mad lor...

some weeks after then i heard from jeannette.. that she feels very pissed wid it...

purposely not meet her for lunch for the rest of the weeks... dun wanna get things worse...

well all i hope is : ppl pls dun fan the wind and light the fire (shan feng dian huo).... if we're meant to be, we will eventually, but if we aren't, then i hope that frens still exist b/w us... dun wanna get things out of hand till we're too embarrassed to even say "hi" when we see each other..

todae abit moody...
weather was good... sunny...

woke up rather late... coz this week's my block leave!!! muahahaha... finally can get away from work... get away from monster and that "u know who" from our office.....

packed up my area todae... infested wid all the dusts... so dusty lor... as though i am in the desert.... hmm come to realise something.... i got lotsa clothes to dump... packed em up and throw em out... the feeling like soooooooooooooo.... *shiok*... think going on shopping spree again... i pity my wallet... any1 willing to sponsor me?

also found some memories of my younger daes... how "beng" i dress and how stupid i look... well i shall save the details... maybe my sec sch and pri sch frens will know...

saw suwen's blog... she is as usual so 38.... haha *ops* well she used to be the 24/7 radio of our class... since pri sch she nv changed.... saw the bikini fotos... hmm nothin much to see leh... should learn from tammy(NYP de) to buy those hmm bust cream... haha... *very bitchy rite... that's me!!!

went to the kitchen to see what shall i whip up for lunch, but only got egg.... so made some fried rice... and it's like long time nv cook then miss the kitchen...

ate then jasen called me... ask him to come over and help me wid the blog... but he didn't help me much.. he forgotten the codings as well... but at least he got me the dreamweaver...

checked my mailz... and searched for more links from all my frens... managed to get some... but not all my frens la... hope that all my pri and sec frens who saw this, pls e-mail me ur url of ur blog... will appreciate that greatly...

had some hard time figuring out how to use this blog... well will still try to bring in better stuffs to this blog...

*yawns* getting late.. tml still got lotsa programmes lined up.. so catch up wid ya ppl again...




Zhi yi sleeping... *gotcha!

well first time creating a blog... not very familiar abt things... so hope u guys dun mind the shabby work... haha... just trying to test things out....
well tired... so not going to add anymore things...

*yawns*